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dear sir,

please please please please....please don't tell me you miss me..

sydney

gosh darnit mumsie!!!

idk how my mom does it, but she always finds a way to make me feel better...thanks mommy.

ugh

..ugh...I've been feeling really weird lately...I wish I could say I didn't know why....blecch. I'm not entirely sure HOW I'm feeling..or exactly what emotion I'm feeling, but I have no idea what it is...i guess if I had to put into words what I'm feeling I would say a mashed potato, corn, cheese bowl from kfc..

(it's the first thing that popped into my head). idk.. it's just a jumble i guess...like a big blah. goddammit.

my heart feels like it's leaking....that can't be good...

"when they drew blood did they test for arthritis?"

so today I had an "event monitor" put on me today (I think it's like a heart monitor or something) because I get heart palpations. Not only that, I have occasional tendonitis in my left knee, runner's knee in my right. My metabolism is that of a lion...(not sure if that's a good reference or not basically I eat A LOT all the time but lose weight at the same time) so to sum everything up my family thinks I'm falling apart..mostly probably dying. I love my family to death, but for some reason everyone (including my 18 yr old sister) thinks they have their medical degree and want to self diagnose me. it's annoying. I guess it's because they love me and care and all that jazz blahblah..