sooo it's currently about 9am..give or take a few minutes and I'm in bed contemplating if i want to start packing or not...i'm leaning towards not. which isn't really a good decision considering i leave for school tomorrow morning and all i've contributed to packing is half heartedly packing my purple tub container with random shizz and moving my art supplies crate from my room downstairs to the living room. my room is a mess. i absolutely hate packing. i mean i'll get it done..i HAVE to before 10am tomorrow, it's just that i don't really want to. whatever.
still waiting on my ipod cord to get here in the mail. p didn't mail it until last saturday and lord knows how long it takes for mail to get from nyc to here. i just hope it arrives today, otherwise i'll have to have my parents mail it to me at school and i know as soon as my mom sees that he sent me something her nosiness is going to into overdrive. things have been going much better between us on my end..mainly because lately we've only been communicating once or twice a week which is perfectly ok with me...gives my emotions a break.
so excited for my classes this semester! well except for french of course...i can still read it fairly well, i'm just hoping my professor isn't going to speak to us in it all the time or i'm screwed. since it's been about 4 years since my last french class i'm not worried about getting a bad grade. i know enough to not fail, but i doubt i'll get an A...i'm shooting for a C. i'm really excited for my harlem renaissance art history class, i can't believe they're devoting a whole class to the harlem renaissance! i'm also excited for the class because chatoyya is in it too which is sentimental, because first semester freshman year we had history class together and here we are last semester of college in the same class...we're both pretty sentimental about it lol.
guess i could do some packing before i have to take my dad's car in to get the oil changed....UUUGGGHHH. packing is the worst!
chicago pictures are still on their way....actually to be honest they might just not come at all..which is fine since they're all up on fb already. even though i probably should just put them on here anyway since it's a lot easier than the grief fb put me through...we'll see.
in other news, went on a little shopping trip with katie, a good friend from high school. we had a nice little chat about grad school. told her about my anxiety attack/nervous breakdown. good to know i'm the only one worried about it. then she asked me a question that since i decided what i wanted to study, i've never asked myself, "have you considered taking time off before going to grad school?" idk why, but ever since i figured out that i want to study curatorial studies, that question never crossed my mind. and the more and more i think about it, it sounds like a good idea. still pondering it..
found a cute cute dress for tonight's festivities with bree and kalisha. of course after squeezing into 6 other dresses...i came to the conclusion that i must wear a size XL in forever 21 dresses and not L anymore. which i don't mind, it just sucks realizing that in the dressing room...after i ripped part of the seam on one dress.oops. ended up with an adorable cream smock type dress that goes to about my knees..so excited to wear it.
now i'll admit i personally don't believe in love at first sight...or at least i didn't until we were walking through nordstrom's on our way out:
isn't it GORGEOUS?! i literally stopped dead in my tracks. and i'll admit i'm not one of those girls that follows designers or knows a lot about their collections, but this marc jacobs purse is the bees knees!! i almost cried when i looked at the price $500 :(( if it had been about $450 cheaper i would've spent every dime i had in my wallet to buy it. it makes my heart go pitter patter lol.
tuesday my sperry's from chicago came in:
it's hard to tell, but the patten leather part of the shoe is purple and the plaid is purple/lavender. these stopped me dead in my tracks too. not only did i get them on sale for $30 below the original price, but i got free shipping too!! i've worn them everywhere with everything!
have mentioned how excited i am for the part 1 of the 7th harry potter movie? i am. super super excited! daniel radcliffe looks sooo good now that he's grown out of his awkward teenager "i look like harry potter even when i'm not in costume" phase. can't wait!!
i've been seriously putting off this post for the longest time...laziness i guess.
anyways, where do i start? i guess chicago is a good place
last week my sister and i joined my mumsie in the windy city for about 5 days. it was sooo nice! granted my sister and i got on each other nerves, but i loved loved LOVED the city! it was a real city..i loved crossing the street against traffic, i loved all the people everywhere, i loved the constant honking. the thought of living in a big city (chicago may not seem big, but i've lived in kansas city all my life) used to always scare me...actually going to one made me so excited to move. unfortunately the connection i thought i was going to feel at the grad school at SAIC never happened. idk if it was because the tour was 16 hours long or because my sister was annoying me, but i just did not feel it. which i guess could be a good thing so i don't have to waste $ applying there. chicago pictures coming soon...probably...hopefully
so after chicago came my birthday (sunday august 1st) . i was pretty lowkey about it, 22 isn't that big of deal to me. yes i should be thankful i lived another year..i am..buut i still wasn't that excited..idk. ended up spending about 9 hours of it on a train back home..which wasn't bad. so glad i brought the harry potter book to read again and spent a week downloading movies. i surprisingly got some good sleep too. had good conversations with p while in chicago and on the train...he's still special to me even if we are just friends.
so back in kansas city...unfortunately. i'm so sick of volunteering...all i do is sit at the visiter's desk, try not to fall asleep and tell grown ass people who don't know how to read signs that food and liquid is not allowed in the museum. *sigh* i have to keep talking myself down from the ledge when i freak out about not doing an internship and how even though the experience would've been nice, it's not going to ruin my life. i definitely had a nervous breakdown about grad school last and almost cried until p calmed me down. it's just that i'm so worried that i don't have enough experience to put on my cv and i won't get into grad school. but then i made the executive decision that if i don't get into grad school i'm still going to move away. i'm keeping the destination a secret unti the time comes to make that decision. but i'm definitely definitely moving away next august...or possibly next may/june...we'll see.
what else is new?
bought new sperry's while in chi city. purple plaid..so cute.. and so me. still working on getting a pair of toms..even though they're about $30 more than i'd like to pay for them and they look goofy on my feet..but details details.
so ready for school to start...can't believe it's my last semester..kind of freaky.
peeled grapefruit and away we go at 1am...i love it.
i love the smell of grapefruit...the citrusy-sweet scent of it. mmm.. and how john krasinski makes my heart go pitter patter..he was kind of a jerk in brief interviews with hideous men, but it was really hard not liking him, because 1. he did an AMAZING job directing and 2. his serious acting really took me by surprise
this has been an interesting week...i successfully survived my classes...this is going to be one intense semester that's for sure. i'm scared of my greek sculpture class...there's about 15 of us..i'm one of 2 that isn't a capstone student and i think 3 are grad students...2 of my classes has grad school students in it..fml. anyways, since my schedule is so crazy and i ended up with huge blocks of spare time during the day, i'm considering picking up another volunteering gig. we'll see..
this weekend was a lot of fun...friday night chatoyya, janine, angelica, chiffontae, ryan and i all went out for drinks. we had a really good time...i already have fun going out with chatoyya and angelica, but janine and chiffontae as additions make it even more fun. of course i was drunk..that was my plan after dealing with the stress of this week i needed some libations. then saturday morning we all sans angelica went to breakfast which was really nice...idk..i felt like a real grown up. "going out to have drinks and to eat"..maybe it's just me being weird again..
so i'm still back and forth about this whole art history thing...a part of doesn't want to go to grad school but then when i'm in class i'm all gung ho about it...and i still want to do museum work, but i can't do anything besides work the gift shop register/cafe/guest desk without a master's degree..once again catch 22...i'm starting to find that life is full of catch 22's
i decided to take a sewing 101 class at the craft studio...i want to make one of those slingback purses(see picture..thanks sisterscoffee.com)
and a totebag and a cloth cover for my secrets journal*
(ok i just got the idea today, but i'm going to get a journal that i'm going to record my secrets in...it sounded like a better idea in my head)
anyways, i'm really excited for the class, becuase i've never really sewn before besides when i hand sewed my purse...you can totally tell ..it's kind of funny.
but yea, i like crafting..it's fun..i brought a glass jar from home to paint to become my pencil cup even though i never use one.
i'm back in that weird i really really want to kiss thing again...and it's not i want to suck someone, anyone's face, it's more of i want to lay in bed with someone i care about and just kiss for hours...and i'm not talking about anyone in particular, because i don't have that kind of person right now..which sucks, because of my situation, but if i did that's what i'd do..but i digress..
so far this weekend has been going pretty well..went out thurs night with the bestie...got waaaay too drunk...still piecing the night together..sort of..i really need to pace myself when i drink..definitely called ex-lovah and may or may not have professed my love for him...then sent him a text talking about fate not liking us or we'd be together...yea..simply pathetic. the good thing is that idk he noticed, b.c he wrote me on fb today (about the ben folds song "the luckiest"....again!!!! made me so happy!) and when i texted him he didn't mention it. also if i know him as well as i do he probably still doesn't check his voicemail. so hopefully he'll never hear it.
so as a result of thursday's debachury, i kept thinking friday was saturday...even tweeted about..didn't notice until someone said something lol. pretty funny. also hung out with my new favorite friend. i looove talking to him, he cracks me up and he's so honest about everything. and he always compliments me, but not in a sleezy coming on to me way. he's good company. i like having a guy friend to hang out with with no expectations. just friends. so he put in a good mood friday after having a good conversation.
today was pretty laid back...just watched tv for the most part....except for the footlong pizza sub
i ate today. i was trying to figure out if i should get a 6 in sub with peach rings or a footlong by itself. it was a hard decision b.c it would've been about the same price either way. so i ended up getting the footlong thinking i could eat 1/2 tonight and the other 1/2 tomorrow...def ate the whole thing...then felt sick lol. but totally worth it.
below is my favorite thing in the world (ok one of many). it's a gold heart & key necklace that used to belong to my mumsie, she gave it to me about a year 1/2 ago. over the summer the original chain broke and i had to stop wearing it, because gold is suuuuper expensive!! damn! but then my birthday came and jackpot! new chain! so happy (when i made one of my fb statuses say that i was happy to be wearing it again, ex-lovah "liked" it...unfortunately i didn't see it until about a week later, but it still made me happy) i decided that when i find the person i want to spend the rest of my life with, i'll give him the key....super cheesy i know..but the necklace means a lot to me and my heart is not something to be played with...
this ring is from tiffanys and i want it soooo bad!!! it's soo pretty
Luscious colors, designed to be stacked or worn alone. Ring with a blue chalcedony in 18k gold. Size small. Original designs copyrighted by Paloma Picasso.Carat total weight 1.70. $1,100
anyways, so i mentioned in an earlier post that a friend of mine was starting a zine and i was thinking about submitting poem/venting exercise type thing...well i did...i also sent it to ex-lovah then took it back...but he had already read it and he replied with this (exact words btw) "i love it! it's actually pretty good."...i was sooo excited to read that! i never ever ever send him ANYTHING about how i feel about him/us/our relationship. well i did when we were together, but i'm always scared of getting my feelings hurt so i keep my mouth shut. but this is more of a reflection on our relationship with a little bit of how i presently feel sprinkled in..that being said, i decided to post it here since my toughest critic liked it..so here it is:
WHEN A GIRL LOVES A BOY
When a girl loves a boy she’ll eat cantaloupe and melon for the first time in her life, because he bought some for her
When a girl loves a boy she stays up with him while he pulls an all nighter to finish a paper
When a girl loves a boy she plays video games with him even though she’s bad at them and doesn’t want to, because he likes playing with her
When a girl loves a boy she lets him cry on her shoulder when he’s upset
When a girl loves a boy she lets him tickle her even though he tickles with claws
When a girl loves a boy she can still feel him wrapped around her while she sleeps
When a girl loves a boy she still occasionally listens to the songs he wrote her
When a girl loves a boy she lets him use her computer to play computer games even though she wants to cuddle
When a girl loves a boy she watches news shows and boxing matches just to spend time with him
When a girl loves a boy she can never forget how his kisses used to make her knees buckle
When a girl loves a boy she will talk to him on the phone until the wee hours of the morning even though she has an early morning class
When a girl loves a boy she listens to “their song” even though they’re not together anymore
When a girl loves a boy she thinks about him more often than she should
When a girl loves a boy she can’t tell her heart no...
soooo things have been going pretty well for me lately. new computer, moneys, my heart problem isn't serious, my confidence is skyhigh..I think that's it so far. oh my geography class is going really really well...I always did like geography. I'm thinking about taking a GIS mapping class..key word thinking. definitely getting my heart tattoo. fa shos. saw "away we go" with the bestie a few days ago..soooo good!! I'm really proud of both john krasinski and maya rudolph for breaking out and doing it successfully. they were amazing!!! and the soundtrack was really good too. so on this awesome blog there is a reoccurring post called "happy lists" (i believe...i may have made that up). and she has people submit a list of ten things that make them happy. I started one weeks ago ..i got to 15 or so. but i decided to write a new one without thinking. so herrre it goes: Sydney's top ten happy list: 1. deep, passionate, knee buckling kisses 2. heart to hearts with friends 3. food 4. hugs 5. good music 6. my favorite tv shows 7. christmas time 8. naps 9. the fam + ginger 10. sweetpea body spray yay!!! wasn't that hard. i guess that's all.
sooo I think I'll start with the obvious..RIP MICHAEL JACKSON!!!!!! the shock has subsided...but still surprised. i was in the car with my bestie and we gotten text messages about it within 30 seconds of each other...we yelled for a few minutes. Can't believe it...no I'll admit he was a bit strange, but he made some damn good music, his dancing was CRA-AAAZZY and was an amazing singer. so I thought I'd share my 2 favorite MJ songs (they're in no particular order, I just couldn't pick an all time favorite..enjoy!
i forgot about this one until it popped up on the "related videos" thing on yoube..another fave!
I was so sad today because I finished my package of Twizzlers' Cherry Pull-n-Peel..so good...speaking of candy today during my break in my art history class I went to buy some peanut m&ms from the vending machine..i had a total of 85cents in my wallet and candy is a $1..whhhy!!! that is too much for vending machine candy. I remember in high school when they raised the price of vending machine candy from 60 cents to 75! 15cents makes a big difference when your in high school and you have no job...oh well..
lately i've been finding myself making random refrences to 30 Rock and The Office (2 of my favorite shows) i always laugh at myself then i think how sad it is..it's been on a an almost daily thing now...I don't know where Tina Fey drew the Liz Lemon character from, but she is genius! Sometimes i feel I have liz lemon tendencies...but liz lemon is cool so it's ok. found out today that it's probably a good idea to change cloth band-aids after a day..or they start to smell like feet.. learned that the hard way.
I am currently addicted to this website, it's hilarious!!! (ok most of the time...i'd say the texts could be broken down like this: 60% hilarious, 50% gross, and 10% random or stupid ) jeez it's hard to type with a band-aid on the top part of your finger...mb I shouldn't have covered my knuckle..oh well.
