she dead! she real dead!

so of course i'm supposed to be typing a paper right now...mm not so much. how can i when "smokin' aces" is on?! this is a damn good movie. everyone did SUCH a good job, especially ryan renolds and jeremy piven. not a fan of jeremy piven, but his acting is pretty good in this movie. big fan of ryan. and of course i have to give props to alicia keys and common. loves them! i will admit that the only thing i don't like about the movie is andy garcia's "southern" accent. it kinda sorta hurts my ears. my favorite part of the movie is the end when it all comes together and ryan shows off his badassness...i wont give it away, but it is fa sho a must see. i remember the first time i watched it was with ex lovah. oh memories.

got me some peach rangs (rings) today..whoo whoo!! however definitely not as good as i thought they were going to be..
i can't believe how fast my hair grows..if it keeps the round shape it has now, i might keep growing it out...we shall see.
I must say i hate phonetag!! it's so mean! ex-lovah and i have been playing phonetag like it's nobody's business..breaks my heart. but the good thing (i guess you can call it a good thing) is that exlovah is playing too, it's not just me trying to get a hold of him, he's calling and messaging me too. and it turns out he doesn't like playing either. hopefully it doesn't last long. i'm glad he still misses me...means i haven't been replaced yet. good to know.

ugh this f-ing paper. it only has to be 3 pages double spaced, not that hard..just don't feel like doing it. school is dumb.

ok not really.

oh hell. real chance of love 2 just came on..now i'm really not going to be able to get anything done...so sad. i really shouldn't watch this show...i mostly watch it because of chance and real..they need a show of just them. they're crazy.

i think something is wrong is with my temporary crown..my tooth has been killing me...which in turn has been f-ing up my sinuses. unfortunately my dental insurance has run out for this year and i don't even have enough to get my teeth clean...so sad. now ppl can't tell me we need healthcare reform. i guess i should be lucky i even have insurance...but what's the point of having it if i can't even take advantage of it? whatever i guess.

OMG ONE OF THESE CHICKS ON THIS SHOW IS 21 F-ING YRS OLD!!! I couldn't IMAGINE myself being on this show...or any show like this for that matter! I still feel young!!! and this is the same chick that said (and i quote) "I'm a pretty girl, i have big boobs...i have a lot to offer" yea ok sweetie. but yea 21 yrs old? no siree bob. pass!

i want to be in love again!! (that's not weird is it?)

ok there's a commercial on tv talking to parents about their kids's asthma but the commercial has a fish flopping around gulping for air while a little girl talks in the background....everytime i watch it all i think is "poor fishy!!" i always feel so bad for it!

ok, i'm forreal about to start this paper....not really, just thought if i said that i'd do it.



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ok now!

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ok i'm going to say im really really going to start my paper, when in reality i just don't have anyting else to say.

laters!!

from the mindgrapes of sydney

so far this weekend has been going pretty well..went out thurs night with the bestie...got waaaay too drunk...still piecing the night together..sort of..i really need to pace myself when i drink..definitely called ex-lovah and may or may not have professed my love for him...then sent him a text talking about fate not liking us or we'd be together...yea..simply pathetic. the good thing is that idk he noticed, b.c he wrote me on fb today (about the ben folds song "the luckiest"....again!!!! made me so happy!) and when i texted him he didn't mention it. also if i know him as well as i do he probably still doesn't check his voicemail. so hopefully he'll never hear it.

so as a result of thursday's debachury, i kept thinking friday was saturday...even tweeted about..didn't notice until someone said something lol. pretty funny. also hung out with my new favorite friend. i looove talking to him, he cracks me up and he's so honest about everything. and he always compliments me, but not in a sleezy coming on to me way. he's good company. i like having a guy friend to hang out with with no expectations. just friends. so he put in a good mood friday after having a good conversation.

today was pretty laid back...just watched tv for the most part....except for the footlong pizza sub

i ate today. i was trying to figure out if i should get a 6 in sub with peach rings or a footlong by itself. it was a hard decision b.c it would've been about the same price either way. so i ended up getting the footlong thinking i could eat 1/2 tonight and the other 1/2 tomorrow...def ate the whole thing...then felt sick lol. but totally worth it.

below is my favorite thing in the world (ok one of many). it's a gold heart & key necklace that used to belong to my mumsie, she gave it to me about a year 1/2 ago. over the summer the original chain broke and i had to stop wearing it, because gold is suuuuper expensive!! damn! but then my birthday came and jackpot! new chain! so happy (when i made one of my fb statuses say that i was happy to be wearing it again, ex-lovah "liked" it...unfortunately i didn't see it until about a week later, but it still made me happy) i decided that when i find the person i want to spend the rest of my life with, i'll give him the key....super cheesy i know..but the necklace means a lot to me and my heart is not something to be played with...

this ring is from tiffanys and i want it soooo bad!!! it's soo pretty

Luscious colors, designed to be stacked or worn alone. Ring with a blue chalcedony in 18k gold. Size small. Original designs copyrighted by Paloma Picasso.Carat total weight 1.70. $1,100

anyways, so i mentioned in an earlier post that a friend of mine was starting a zine and i was thinking about submitting poem/venting exercise type thing...well i did...i also sent it to ex-lovah then took it back...but he had already read it and he replied with this (exact words btw) "i love it! it's actually pretty good."...i was sooo excited to read that! i never ever ever send him ANYTHING about how i feel about him/us/our relationship. well i did when we were together, but i'm always scared of getting my feelings hurt so i keep my mouth shut. but this is more of a reflection on our relationship with a little bit of how i presently feel sprinkled in..that being said, i decided to post it here since my toughest critic liked it..so here it is:

WHEN A GIRL LOVES A BOY

When a girl loves a boy she’ll eat cantaloupe and melon for the first time in her life, because he bought some for her

When a girl loves a boy she stays up with him while he pulls an all nighter to finish a paper

When a girl loves a boy she plays video games with him even though she’s bad at them and doesn’t want to, because he likes playing with her

When a girl loves a boy she lets him cry on her shoulder when he’s upset

When a girl loves a boy she lets him tickle her even though he tickles with claws

When a girl loves a boy she can still feel him wrapped around her while she sleeps

When a girl loves a boy she still occasionally listens to the songs he wrote her

When a girl loves a boy she lets him use her computer to play computer games even though she wants to cuddle

When a girl loves a boy she watches news shows and boxing matches just to spend time with him

When a girl loves a boy she can never forget how his kisses used to make her knees buckle

When a girl loves a boy she will talk to him on the phone until the wee hours of the morning even though she has an early morning class

When a girl loves a boy she listens to “their song” even though they’re not together anymore

When a girl loves a boy she thinks about him more often than she should

When a girl loves a boy she can’t tell her heart no...

la la la

so right now I'm supposed to be writing a 4-5 page paper for one of my history classes that's due tomorrow....clearly i'm not. I got distracted by watching this week's episode of Greek..then the internet decided to fight my computer so I couldn't finish it..then I got the best message ever: "I just heard ben folds five song "the luckiest" and thought of you. Miss you sp..." I know it's a sad message, but it made me smile so hard, because he and I haven't really been able to communicate on a regular basis these past few weeks, and it was totally unexpected...and i like that he misses me...mainly because I miss him too...i'm sure that sounds pretty twisted, but it's nice to know someone is thinking of you and tell you especially when you think of them all the time. so yea that really made me happy. then i had to go listen to that song of course...then i had to listen to our song "chasing cars" by snow patrol...i really love that song...

one of my friends is starting a zine and i wrote a poem about us..i'm considering submitting it, but at the same time it started out as a venting/get my feelings out kind of thing...i'm always scared to share my feelings with others, especially when it comes to him. I've started so many blog posts talking about him then either deleting them or never posting them...i'm debating whether to even post this one...idk..i'm just very fragile when it comes to my feelings..especially feelings of the heart...when i think of my heart i picture it as anatomically correct made out of glass..

SIGH

good grief this f-ing paper....ugh. i've been here for 2 hours and what have i accomplished?? yea nothing. i guess i should start now...

tv and microwave programming

post number deux...only b.c i'm bored and have no intention of studying even though i should be. a friend of mine is the queen of survey/questionnaires on fb so i decided to post one...enjoy


1.Your ex is on the side of the road, on fire. What do you do?
-save him!

2.Your best friend tells you she's pregnant. What is your reaction?
-well...seeing as how i've already been in that situation with a friend of mine, i'll just say i'll be shocked

3.When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face?
-mmm..everytime i'm walking to class behind someone taking their afternoon sunday stroll

4. Congratulations! You just had a son. What's his name?
-Carter

5. Congratulations! You just had a daughter. What's her name?
-Malia

6.What are you craving right now?
-those gummi peach ring things

7.What was the last thing you cried about?
-ex lovah...surprise surprise..

8.When you buy something and your change is a penny, do you keep it?
-hell yes!! there's a recession going on!

9. What color is your tissue box?
-at the moment i don't have a tissue box

10.Do you have a ceiling fan in your room, and if so, is there dust on that fan?
-at home i do...and yes that thing is always covered dust

11.What was the last voice mail you received about?
-an office calling for someone else

12 Scariest thing you've experienced in the last year?
-well seeing as how i have the memory of an elephant, it would have to be a tie between when i found out about my heart condition thingy and when i thought i lost my dog

13.Have you ever had a garage sale?
-my familia has

14.What is the last beverage you had?
-pepsi cola

15.Are you happy right now?
-sure..definitely not unhappy

17.Do you drink energy drinks?
-when i do i drink Tab

18.Have your brothers or sisters ever told you that you were adopted?
-nope, i'm the oldest

19.Dark or light jeans?
-dark fa sho

20.What was the last movie you watched at home?
-the latest harry potter movie

21.What is in your pocket?
-nothing

22.Who introduced you to your boyfriend/girlfriend?
-well im single right now so...

23.Where do you hurt?
-my teeth..need to put in my retainer

24.What is your favorite aisle at Wal-Mart?
-movies

25.When is your birthday?
-august 1 (i share it with ashley parker angel from the infamous boy band otown)

26.What are you going to do after this?
-continue watching 30 rock

27.Who was the last person you went shopping with?
-miss angelica poo

28.What about your favorite dessert?
-cake, brownie, cinnamon roll, peach cobbler

29.Do you have the same name as one of your relatives?
-nope!

30.Do you like pickles?
-dill

31.Is someone in love with you?
-if they are i'm completely unaware

32.What color is your couch?
-the couch at home is blue

33.Has anyone ever mistaken you for a family member?
-my parents get my sister and i mixed up sometimes

34.Does someone like you right now?
-i hope so...and if they do they should tell me!

35.Do you know anyone in jail/prison?
-no

36. Who was the last person to send you a text message?
-miss angelica poo...again lol

37. How many hours did you sleep for last night?
-idk...i don't really keep track on the weekends/holidays

38. Do you swear at your parents?
-no!! i value my life

39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
-idk...it is a romantic thought though

40. What is the last thing you spent money on?
-beef n broccoli w/white rice...yummers

41. Name one thing no one can ever take away from you?
-my ability to love...(too cheesy?)

42. What is the last thing you ate that had onions in it?
-i think the beef n broccoli had some..idk..

43.Crunchy or Puffy Cheetos?
-both...but i prefer puffy

44.Have you ever blocked someone on Facebook before?
-yes!! ignorant people out there

45.Do you wear a name tag at work?
-when i worked at hobby lobby i did

46.What color is your iPod?
-black, but currently it has a monet "garden" cover on it...until i get bored and need change

47.What is your favorite key chain on your keys??
-my leather name meaning piece

48.Say you were given a pregnancy test right now. Would you pass or fail?
-fail...thank goodness!!!

49.What were you doing at midnight last night?
-watching law & order svu and eating oreos....oh the good ol' days..




color coding is so much fun. had swirled wheat rueben bread for the first time today...yea kinda gross. but the sandwich was ham n cheese (cheddar!!!) so it wasn't too bad. talked to my parents today....they really need their own reality show..just have cameras follow them around and record their banter. "the adventures of shelley and mitch". they crack me up. well i guess that's all...againl.

ps I NEVER want to get married except for when I come across these things/thoughts/people:

1. my parents. their marriage isn't picture perfect like the cleavers, but it's clear they truly love one another and that's what i want

2. this photographer: http://photobybasia.com/ not only is she a really good photographer, but she somehow captures the perfect moments between the brides and grooms as well as others...i love it.

3 this blog: http://taza-and-husband.blogspot.com/ they are such a cute young, married couple and their blog is really fun to read.

4. president barack and first lady michelle obama. not only are they the best image of black love, they are history makers! and i know this sounds superficial, but throughout the whole election/ingaugration (no idea how to spell that word) i didn't cry until their first dance....yea pathetic i know.

mmm ok i'll admit when i came up with the idea for this list i had more ideas. but you get what i meant

happy labor day! blah blah

so i'm not really sure the whole point of labor day...is it to celebrate all the people that work? like secretarie's day celebrates secretaries? if that's the case shouldn't secretaries get that day off? i mean i'm not complaing. labor day is one out of four holidays of the year the the wonderful university of missouri-columbia gives it's students off...the others being martin luther king day, turkey day and xmas. we don't even get a winter break! 4 years later..still bitter about that.

right now i'm watching season 4 of the office bloopers....well i was until my dvd messed up. mb i'll watch 30 rock...the office is really the only show i can watch over and over again without getting sick of it.

so on usa channel/network whatever they're having an "emmy marathon weekend" and showing monk/house/law & order:svu marathons...sooo guess what i did all day yesterday? yea that's right laid (layed?) in bed all mf-ing day blog hopping and watching law&order and stuffing my face with oreos. it was heaven. although the only sad part is that when i woke up at 7something this morning i finished off the last of the cookies. i was pretty proud of myself...tking only 2 1/4 days to eat the whole package..i probably shouldn't be, but it's the little things in life.

was fiiiinnally able to watch my bootleg copy of harry potter 6. loves that movie. rupert grint sho could get it whenever he wanted it....that malfoy kid is looking better and better too...

might be time for a haircut soon..

i thought i had more to say..i guess not. so i'll end with this:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=URCMDgdKMWk&feature=player_embedded

why not?

today has been full of laziness and blog hopping. while doing so i found this awesome blog and the blogger completed this cute questionnaire like survey thing, which i thought was cute so of course i had to do it...being the follower that i am

so here goes it:

What is important to you as of right now?
getting my life together

Would your girlfriend/boyfriend be mad if they saw you kissing someone else?
if i had a boyfriend i'm sure he would be

How are you feeling right now?
eh...ok.

Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
sort of...I really don't like sharing everything

Who is your best friend?
angelica and brianna

Are you listening to music right now?
no, just watching tv

Did you kiss anyone today?
unfortunately no

Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoos?
yes and yes!

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
angelica

Is it hard for you to admit when you're wrong?
not really

Do you curse in front of your parents?
my slips

Is there something someone should know about?
yea...

Last time you saw fireworks, with who & where?
hmm...4th of july last year with my family

Are you afraid of roller coasters?
very

What are you supposed to be doing right now?
reading for school

Are you slowly drifting away from someone?
i think so...sadness

When was the last time you felt unbearably guilty?
2 weeks ago..but it turned out to be a false alarm

Have you ever kissed anyone who's name started with an A?
angelica! i was drunk and made her

Can you play guitar hero?
definitely not! my hand/eye corridnation is not up to par for that game

Do you prefer warm or cold weather?
mmm maybe cold

How old do you think you will be when you finally have kids?
no age!! i'm never having kids

When a friend walks out of your life, do you go after them or let them go?
depends on the person and the situation

Have you ever kissed in the rain?
does mistiness count? then yes

Do you know anyone who is pregnant?
yep 2 girls as a matter of fact

Does anyone hate you?
i hope not..

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
sort of..depends on the situation

Who was the last girl you talked to?
danielle (my sister) thru texts

Who was the last guy you talked to?
ex-lovah thru texts

Are you trying to avoid liking somebody at the moment?
mmm..i think so..

When was the last time someone called you baby?
ages ago...by ex lovah

Who was the last person you had an argument with?
my sister every other day a few weeks ago

When was the last time you were really confused?
thursday during my mass extinctions class

Has anybody ever given you butterflies?
whew lordy yes

Do you have nice eyes?
i'd like to think so

Whose birthday is coming up?
let me check facebook....

Were you happy when you woke up?
not really..wasn't really ready to wake up

Do you think that you have made a difference in someones life?
i hope so

What was the last thing you cried about?
ex lovah...what else?

Who was the last person that called you?
angelica

Do you plan on moving out next year?
i have no idea yet

What are you currently doing besides this?
getting my law & order svu fix

Any plans for tomorrow?
nope

What's the last thing you ate?
oreos

Are you gonna be home alone tonight?
probs

What are you doing tonight?
idk yet...

How has this week been?
up and down

When is the last time you took a nap?
a few days ago

Is someone mad at you right now?
hope not..

Do you ever hang out with someone of the opposite sex?
yep yep

When was the last time you were sick?
earlier this summer with strep throat...which i'm realizing i never finished my penicillin prescription for...oopsies

What are you looking forward to?
the new season of the office


ok it definitely took me longer to make the survey look pretty then it did to actually answer the questions...i really have no life lol.

dirty bomb fuzzy glove

so a few days ago i found out that my school has 11,096 undergraduate male students...and yet a sister is still single. i have been single since may of 2008...i think...let me think about it..yea since last may. which doesn't seem like a long time, just over a year. but in reality it seems like forever ....why me lord? i really am starting to believe i was an evil doer in my past life. so unfair. i have freckles for petesake!! and an awesome gold nose ring..I'm a catch! I still know all the words to every backstreet boys song...i could do a one girl show of phantom of the opera, moulin rouge and pride & prejudice! i'm not THAT messy...i may acquire a few crumbs from eating in bed, but nothing too extreme. i have a cute, short curly fro-thing. w.e at least i have my health.

things i want right now
1. a slice...or 2 or 3 of my great-gma ferne's homemade apple pie
2. a red or navy peacoat with toggle closures
3. a car
4. shrimp
5. strawberry pop
6. a cuddle buddy
7. flat tummy...abs wouldn't hurt
8. diamond stud earrings
9. . a gold ring with a pearl
10. a better gpa
11. a working tv
12. contacts

when i was younger i always envied geni from i dream of geni and samantha from bewtiched, because they always got what they wanted thanks to their magical powers. i used to wish that i could wiggle my nose and move my head to make my room clean. oh to be young again

ex lovah has officially joined the grown up world. *insert major dramatic unnecessary sigh*
as dramatic as i am i'm happy for him.

i would just prefer for the universe to not be so against me right now......once again i have my health

2 bad habits i've acquired lately: sleeping in my clothes..which i guess isn't really a bad habit, i just shouldn't do it..ok i guess i can..idk. 2nd taking benedryl to help me fall asleep. i know it's probably really really bad to do, it makes my sleeping life easier.

ok no more mopey sad emo ramblings, happy time for the rest of this post!

GOOD NEWS TIME!

• my favorite show The Office starts back up again sept 17th. must find a way to get season 5...i'm technically not supposed to be student charging at the bookstore anymore since i ran out of $ to pay for school. so we shall see.
• 30 rock starts in october....so far away but excitement is still being expressed on my part
  went to academic retention services yesterday and had major help in planning my future...which took a lot of stress off my shoulders...whoo whoo!
• got my beef n broccoli w/white rice fix today...who knew mall chinese food could taste so good?! Yummers !
  

still working on tattoo #2. i want another one soooo bad!! it's addicting. mmm christian bale = yummy. (im watching the dark knight) i've heard people (mostly media) say bad things about maggie gyllenhaal's looks...not cool. 1. she's super cute 2. she's an awesome actress. ok i think she's really cute and a good actress. speaking of my opinoin, why on earth is miley cyrus of all people a part of vh1's divas live show this year after 5 f-ing years of the show not happening?!?!?!?! i'm super pissed!!! what about REAL performers?! beyonce? shakira? jennifer hudson? taylor swift? women who can actually sing!?! ugh!!! damn you vh1!!! whatever. miley can blow me..can't stand her.
ok time to cool off...

well i guess that's all for now...in a much better mood now.

oopsies

looking back on my last post i realized i forgot to put up a picture of my sister. (good thing she doesn't read this on a regular basis, she wouldn't be too happy lol) so here is my favorite antagonist..lover her to death no matter how pissed i get at her. we may not get along 24/7, but we do have some classic childhood memories..i'm glad we're really close. i dont know what i'd do without her. love you dan!!

my favorite little brother and sister

(pardon le eyebrows)

oooh what great taste in clothes you have!

(yea i'm reppin the Human Rights Campaign!!)

lake michigan! one of my favorite places

so pretty!

xmas eve, my freshman year of college...definitely gained the freshmen 15 in my face

(2nd attempt at bangs..didn't turn out so well, but not as bad as the first)

sometimes the universe isn't on your side

holy toledo today was a rough day...idk what's been going on, but lately I've been going through some serious mood swings. not very fun. second night this week I cried forever and ever. (one of my pillowcases is still stained from sunday...too lazy to wash it before laundry day..whenever that'll be)I just don't understand why people have to grow up? it's really not fair. i'm sure I sound super selfish, but i don't care. it makes me sad. when i was in high school i believed that crying, even for no reason, was a stress reliever and a way get my emotion off my shoulders and blah blah....i really dont feel like that anymore...now if i'm sad enough i'll cry, when my my eyes have dried up because i'm out of tears i'm still sad...crying solves absolutely nothing. still don't have what i want . ugh. i should probably stop complaining.

so a&e has been playing criminal minds like hotcakes (so that really doesn't make any sense, i just wanted an excuse to use hotcakes) and i must say the guy who plays spencer reed (matthew gray gruber) is sooo cute!! he plays a genius on the show and he does a really good job, there have been a few dramatic scens with his character...he gets props from me. and shemar moore?! don't get me started on that man...pure fine chocolately muscle. the only thing i hate about the marathons on a&e is that they start the episodes over again..ohwells.

i need a drink and a smoke. apparently the government is going to make cloves illegal here soon...if they weren't so expensive and i smoked them on a regular basis i would totally stock up....but seeing as how they arent' and i dont ...probs wont. (aww that was cute).well since im done drowning in my own sorrow, think i'm done......here are some pictures:

bree the best bestie

angelica the other best bestie..ever!!!

pop pop and my gingerbread

my brandon boo

mumsie

one of many birthday donuts

the best donuts in the history of the doughnut universe

one of the few swimsuit pictures of that exist in the world

the birthday girl!!