self love

i'll admit, i haven't always had the highest of high levels of self esteem over the course of my life (due to many different factors, but i won't get into that), but recently (within the past year or so) i've really started to love myself for who i am and all that jazz.

while i was in class this afternoon i started to think about some of the things that make me..so here's a short list:

• i'm messy and unorganized
• i eat in bed and don't mind the crumbs
• i cheer for the puppies during the puppy bowl
• i'm the only one in my family with freckles
• my love for my favorite color purple can go a little overboard
• i love to laugh
• i sometimes wait until the last minute to take out the trash
• ever since my dad and i waltzed to the flowers dance from the nutcracker at my cotillion, i now get teary-eyed everytime i hear it
• i can't walk over grates
• i've always ALWAYS wanted to be a ballerina

..ok i had more earlier today, but this is all i can think of...

anyways, there's a quote that goes something like "you can't love someone until you love yourself" i really like that...

guess that's all...

deep breaths

i have a really bad habit of mentally

going ape shit when things go wrong

then because i'm so pissed other things that wouldn't

ordinarily piss me off do...

BUT! then my friends come to my rescue without even realizing it

thank gooseness for friends

especially best friends

oy

2 weeks done.

this semester is going to be the death of me.

(image via tantalizingchef.com)

*now i know to search "cartoon dead fish" instead

of just "dead fish"...otherwise a lot of

gross images come up..

la la la love

i may have mentioned this before, but i secretly

get excited about the thought of finding love again...

"then i'll be at erection cove"

i love 30 rock i really do....probably more then i should, but whatevs.
studying and school is so overrated..(ok not really, but i'm
currently in that anti school mindset again...mainly, because i'm
tired as all get out, and instead of being in bed i'm here at the
library pretending to study...but at least i'm in good company.
chatoyya and angelica are here too.)

idk why, but i've gotten into the weird habit of listening to
robin thicke's song "sex therapy" every morning (actually
about 3 times in a row, because it takes that long to walk
to my first class)...i guess i think it's weird for me to listen to
the song in the morning since it's so sexual...idk..i'm weird.

sooo instead of studying, i'm sitting here listening to
songs on youtube i have no business listening to...
this one in particular:

d.c. my love

one of my life goals is to live in d.c. i've wanted to move there ever since i visited le ex lovah during my spring break almost 2 years ago (i can't believe it's been that long since we've seen each other in person...kind of weird) but yea i looooved the city...there was something about it. he went to georgetown so the area around the school was so nice and there were the cutest little houses and apartments that were painted different colors. one day we went to virginia...it really freaked me out, because right behind (ok not directly behind, but pretty close) georgetown is the potamic river and the washington bridge (i think that's the name) so we walked from georgetown over the potamic into virginia..it was so much fun.

anyways here's part of my trip in pictures...i took out the couply ones, because no one wants to see those

we made a special trek across our nation's capitol

just so I could see stephen colbert's portrait

(i was so happy certain people were willing

to that for me)

yes i took a picture of this...i must say that i do not appreciate

the fact that the genius who designed the building

made both entrances look EXACTLY alike...which

causes people to go in one side and leave out of what they

think is the same entrance which they don't realize

is a completely different exit until they've walked almost

an hour in the wrong direction....just saying.

the washington monument (of course)

the library

the museum was having a special hip hop exhibit

and this guard was standing outside of it...he was HOT!!

of course i didn't tell certain people about this, didn't think

he would appreciate it lol.

part of georgetown's campus...i fell IN love

with it, it is such the stereotypical

east coast ivy league campus

the healy building i believe

healy building part 2

walking down embassy row

certain people were getting kind of annoyed with

me, because i kept stopping to take pictures

of all the embassies(?)...it was kind of funny

i seriously have a whole facebook photo album

of just embassy row pictures...i'm that kind

of tourist

still embassy row

the smithsonian castle

the capitol building..we didn't get a chance

to go see the white house which i didn't mind...

didn't get a large amount of touristy time, since certain people

still had school, but i did get to see a lot considering...it was still

a pretty fun trip

the national archives building

embassy row again..yea these are super

out of order

was really surprised to find out dc has a chinatown

so in conclusion, dc is my town..it pains me to watch real world dc (figuratively of course)

but anyways, one day i'll be there. until then i'll just keep daydreaming and skimming

apartments for rent on craigslist. (i wish i could say i'm joking about that)

meert.

peeled grapefruit and away we go at 1am...i love it.

i love the smell of grapefruit...the citrusy-sweet scent of it. mmm..
and how john krasinski makes my heart go pitter patter..he was kind of a jerk in brief interviews with hideous men, but it was really hard not liking him, because 1. he did an AMAZING job directing and 2. his serious acting really took me by surprise

this has been an interesting week...i successfully survived my classes...this is going to be one intense semester that's for sure. i'm scared of my greek sculpture class...there's about 15 of us..i'm one of 2 that isn't a capstone student and i think 3 are grad students...2 of my classes has grad school students in it..fml. anyways, since my schedule is so crazy and i ended up with huge blocks of spare time during the day, i'm considering picking up another volunteering gig. we'll see..


this weekend was a lot of fun...friday night chatoyya, janine, angelica, chiffontae, ryan and i all went out for drinks. we had a really good time...i already have fun going out with chatoyya and angelica, but janine and chiffontae as additions make it even more fun. of course i was drunk..that was my plan after dealing with the stress of this week i needed some libations. then saturday morning we all sans angelica went to breakfast which was really nice...idk..i felt like a real grown up. "going out to have drinks and to eat"..maybe it's just me being weird again..

so i'm still back and forth about this whole art history thing...a part of doesn't want to go to grad school but then when i'm in class i'm all gung ho about it...and i still want to do museum work, but i can't do anything besides work the gift shop register/cafe/guest desk without a master's degree..once again catch 22...i'm starting to find that life is full of catch 22's

i decided to take a sewing 101 class at the craft studio...i want to make one of those slingback purses (see picture..thanks sisterscoffee.com)

and a totebag and a cloth cover for my secrets journal*

(ok i just got the idea today, but i'm going to get a journal that i'm going to record my secrets in...it sounded like a better idea in my head)

anyways, i'm really excited for the class, becuase i've never really sewn before besides when i hand sewed my purse...you can totally tell ..it's kind of funny.

but yea, i like crafting..it's fun..i brought a glass jar from home to paint to become my pencil cup even though i never use one.

i'm back in that weird i really really want to kiss thing again...and it's not i want to suck someone, anyone's face, it's more of i want to lay in bed with someone i care about and just kiss for hours...and i'm not talking about anyone in particular, because i don't have that kind of person right now..which sucks, because of my situation, but if i did that's what i'd do..but i digress..

..hmm guess that's all for now..