ZZZZzzzz......or not

sooo it's currently after 3am...I have to be up for class in about 4 1/2 hours for class...I shouldn't be surprised. It's my new "sleep schedule". so mon-fri I get about 4-5 hours of sleep every night, fall asleep in class, take a nap about 5 or 7 ish. then wake up about 11-12. and not go to sleep til 3 or 4. THEN on the weekend (sat and sun) I sleep til 1-2 in the afternoon. it sucks major blue whale sized balls. but there's only about 2 weeks of actual class left anyways.

watching The Office right now.....definitely one of my top 5 ALL TIME FAVORITO tv shows. oh so Larry Wilmore is a producer on the show..THEN I found out he's one of the anchors on the Daily Show (Senior Black corresponant or something like that) once I started watching the show on a regular basis again. well my point is i didn't realize how much of a funny guy he is. I want to adopt him as my uncle. there are a lot of ppl I want to adopt actually ..Angela Davis as another aunt, Susan Boyle as my singing nanny...I had more but I can't remember who they are

pretty sure I could live off shrimp for the rest of my life

well back to le Office

p.s. can I just say that Dhani Jones is THE best looking man I've ever seen in my life....and he writes poetry!!!!



p.p.s. I love that I figured out how to make words turn into websites

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so for the past I don't know how many weekends (not including last sat.) my fri/sat nights have consisted of me planted in front of the tv with my computer watching the nightly CSI: Miami marathons on A&E....tonight i just realized how sad that was...mainly because once they started the episodes over again I realized how long I had been watching. I always feel like I should read a book or do a science experiment or something after watching tv for hours and hours, my brain always feels like mush. Also I felt dizzy for a good part of the day including right now...it's weird because I feel dizzy while I'm sitting down. I had 2 consecutive doctor's appointments this week because my body is slowly breaking down on me. I had to get blood drawn which really hurt (I don't care what anyone else says those needles hurt like hell). my mom thinks I'm either anemic or diabetic....whenever she diagnoses me I'm always so tempted to ask her where she got her medical degree from, but I always opt out....I may be dumb but I'm not stupid (or however that saying goes).


Still in the process of "letting go" that special person... Friday I was in suuuuch a bad, mopey mood. I tried listening to India.Arie, because she's the homie and she always makes me feel better...somehow she ended up making me feel worse..not sure how. But i didn't hold it against her. So yea..one of these days I'll be cured. ahhh dizziness!!! this can't be good at all. Anyways yes so currently I am looking for a bf, but I know if i keep saying that finding one will take longer. I really do believe in that whole "good things come when you least expect them" or whatever the saying is..that's what happened with my ex, total surprise. Oh and about that whole "ex" business. so I went to a party last sat. night and made a new friend. We ended up talking a few hours about different stuff, and of course past relationships came up. It was weird calling my ex "ex" because when I talk about him to everyone else I just call him by his first name, but anyways it was weird because it kept reminding me that 1. we've been broken up for about a year now and that's a long time (actually longer then we were together...irony? no that's just how my life goes) 2. he was my first real real bf.

..damn I forgot my point....oh well. probs for the best.

all in all I do want a bf....not sure why though, because I'm actually doing pretty ok being single but it would be nice to have someone to cuddle with...that's when i get the loneliest is at night...oh well.

I really want to end on a happy note....so here it goes:

shiver me timbers

I HATE f-ing airports!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (especially my hometown airport KCI) ....only because of the memories I have associated with them....I've had to say some of the most painful goodbyes there. I'll explain: there's a shuttle service in my college town called the mo-ex that takes you from columbia to the kc and stl airports. since I don't have my own means of transportation I sometimes take it to and from school. I didn't mind it so much before, but now that I'm in the midst of attemptng to let go of someone I love, whenever I go to the airport all I can think of are those goodbyes. Although there are one or two or more GOOD memories at the airport. Like when he came to visit for Thanksgiving break I went to go pick him up from the airport, I was supposed to be there when his plane landed, but I understimated how long it would take me to get there. I got there (after getting lost inside the terminal) and it was so sweet, because he was sitting on the luggage carousel all by himself. He looked like the last kid waiting to get picked up after school. anyways I remember I was about 100 ft (i honestly don't know how far away I was, but it was pretty far) and I called him on his phone and he ran down to where I was and picked me up....it was just like out of all the cheesy romantic movies but I loved it. Anyways airports=stank...sometimes.




I'm so hungry right now, but can't figure out what I want......I'm dying for some fiesta potatoes from Taco Bell...sound so good right now.


I guess that's all....now back to brooding and "Little Miss Sunshine"