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soo today was a purrdy good day. skipped my first class to write a shitty paper..thank the lordy for teachers who don't give credit for first drafts!

chatted with ex-lovah today...we had a good conversation lol. i have a bad habit of reverting back to my old relationship behavior when it comes to talking to him by wanting to talk all the time everyday and getting sad when he has to go. but lately i've been getting better....sort of...i know he's really busy being a grad student and all that..i just get used to talking to him that i want to talk to him on a regular basis. but i know that won't happen...i've accepted that. which is why i just take advantage of any conversation he can squeeze in. it makes me feel better knowing that he still wants to talk...it makes me smile because he'll apologize for not being able to chat long or taking a long time to respond to my messages or not being able to talk at all. i always tell him it's ok and no big, because it's really not. just the fact that he responds means a lot to me. we're supposed to skype this weekend (his suggestion we skype since now he has a new computer and this weekend since he's free)....this is going to sound weird, but i'm kind of nervous, because it's been over a year since we've seen each other...i know skype isn't a physical face to face meeting, but still....after more than a year of emails, texts, phone calls, fb messages/chats, skype is the closest thing we have. i can't wait..thinking seeing him reminds me of his first visit after we started dating...we both were so nervous. i remember i was outside in front of my dorm and he was walking thru the parking lot across the street, we were on the phone talking to each other and i was looking for him but i couldn't see him even though he could see me...then he crossed the street....it was like a scene from a movie (as cheesy as it sounds) butterflies and all...

well i guess that's it...i can't remember my main reason for this post so i'll end here...