happy is as happy does

so i've been single for about

2 years now...and let me say

it has been an interesting ride.

i've had a few gentleman callers along

the way..been on a date (i wish i could say

"or two" but i seriously i've only been on 1

date in 2 years)

and lord knows my ex and i have gone

through it trying to figure out our feelings.

which in turn has had a crazy effect on me and

my emotions

BUT

it feels good to finally be happy and embraceful

(idk if that's a word or not) of my singledom.

i have one good guy friend, a male aquaintance

who i see occasionally..and that's it.

i'm "prospect" free and for some reason i'm loving it!

and i must say it's nice to be on a strictly platonic

friendly not talking about our feelings level

with ex lovah.

i like our chemistry..we were chatting

tonight and i wanted to rant to him

like i did to bree because i knew he

would make me feel better.

somehow we didn't make it there

and yet i was in a good mood

at the end of the conversation,

i messaged him a few days ago during one of

my many freakouts over my unknown

plans for the future....here are his lovely

insightful words of wisdom:

"go to new york or san diego.

go to grad school.

smoke some green.

breathe.

there ya go."

i couldn't help but laugh. i hate to admit it

but that did calm me down a bit lol.

anyways, long story short i'm pretty happy

i have no idea what i want to do

with my life as of yet, but

that's ok.

one day at a time, that's all i can do

(here's a picture of happy sydney....it's one of my faves)