go to sleep already

yes it's approximately 2:30am and i'm wide awake...i know i should either go to sleep or study..buuut not really feeling it. why would i study when i there are wonderful and awesome blogs to discover?

i may or may not be eating

a submarine sandwich and chips

at 2:30am..in the bed..

ok so i got this in my mailbox today,

and the paranoid person i am immediately

assumed it was a letter from the

university telling me they discovered

all the music i may have acquired illegally and

are taking legal action against me.

one thing i've noticed about me is that

when i'm in situations like this all common

sense goes out the window. i should've known

it wasn't serious, i would've gotten an

official letter on official letterhead

signed by some head muckety muck.

(not saying i know this from experience

....*cough*cough*)

turned out to be a letter from the

admissions office asking me to be

a host for a high school senior.

*insert sigh of relief*

random thought: i think i could make it in new york...i'd have to save up $ like crazy before moving there...and i'd also have to find a job first too. i wish i could be like those people who can pack up and move to another city on a whim..i'm too (whatever the word is for people who need to be on a schedule and has to have everything planned out). i really am...even when making plans with friends. "sure we can meet about 6ish" nope not good enough lol is 6ish closer to 6? 615ish? more like 630?? it's bad...which is why i keep freaking out about the future, because i've always had a plan and now everything after graduation has been thrown out the window....i'll survive i'm sure. i just can't stay in kc for very long.

(i am craving cupcakes like crazy!)

guess i'll go to bed now...

ps 30 rock was hilarious (as usual) tonight..tina fey never ever disappoints

"sculpture and enlightenment"

(that has nothing to do with anything really, it's the title of a book i'm supposed to be reading for my arts in the rococo class, but clearly i'm not...but i did start it!)


anyways. had my first midterm today, in my artists of the renaissance class...it was pretty easy, my professor had given us the exact questions about a month ago so basically all i had to do was memorize the answers.
i feel so bad, because i love my greek sculpture class, i'm learning a lot and i really enjoy my professor, but for some reason i can not stay awake for the life of me! I always always end up nodding off...i bet it has something to do with the fact that it's 1:15mins long (11-12:15pm), in the same room as my first class of the day which also happens to be 1:15mins long (9:30-10:45am)...i know i'm not a very bright kid for that one. *sigh* or maybe i just need to keep on working on my sleep schedule...if i was telling my mother about this dilemma i'm sure she'd go with door #3.

have i mentioned how i can't wait for san diego?? well i can't. 2 more weeks...that's all i have left.

i had planned on studying tonight, but i just remembered the office and 30 rock comes on tonight...soooo i think i'm just gonna take it easy. i am pretty tired.


i thought i had more to say, guess not...

my brain has checked out

i just spent 6 1/2 hours studying for the 3 midterms i have, one of which is tomorrow morning. yes my head is killing me, yes i'm tired as hell, yes i will still have to study for hours on thursday, friday saturday AND sunday, but it feels good to know that if i put my mind to it i have the determination to get shit done and focus.




yea this was a small "go me" post

happy is as happy does

so i've been single for about

2 years now...and let me say

it has been an interesting ride.

i've had a few gentleman callers along

the way..been on a date (i wish i could say

"or two" but i seriously i've only been on 1

date in 2 years)

and lord knows my ex and i have gone

through it trying to figure out our feelings.

which in turn has had a crazy effect on me and

my emotions

BUT

it feels good to finally be happy and embraceful

(idk if that's a word or not) of my singledom.

i have one good guy friend, a male aquaintance

who i see occasionally..and that's it.

i'm "prospect" free and for some reason i'm loving it!

and i must say it's nice to be on a strictly platonic

friendly not talking about our feelings level

with ex lovah.

i like our chemistry..we were chatting

tonight and i wanted to rant to him

like i did to bree because i knew he

would make me feel better.

somehow we didn't make it there

and yet i was in a good mood

at the end of the conversation,

i messaged him a few days ago during one of

my many freakouts over my unknown

plans for the future....here are his lovely

insightful words of wisdom:

"go to new york or san diego.

go to grad school.

smoke some green.

breathe.

there ya go."

i couldn't help but laugh. i hate to admit it

but that did calm me down a bit lol.

anyways, long story short i'm pretty happy

i have no idea what i want to do

with my life as of yet, but

that's ok.

one day at a time, that's all i can do

(here's a picture of happy sydney....it's one of my faves)

one of those days.

today was rough. i'm in no way bitter about being single(at least not anymore) but i'm currently in "hearing people talk about their relationships" overload.

major overload.

i've called brianna idk how many times bitching about being annoyed...i'm so thankful

she hasn't gotten sick of me yet lol

i just can't wait for spring break, going to san diego!! i've never been to the beach before

i've been to the "beaches" of the great lakes, but not a real beach. i'm so excited!!

thank goodness for best friends and the office* lifting my spirits and calming me down

*especially the episodes where they're debating whether hilary swank is hot or not, and

dwight's fire drill lol.

i miss getting love letters

freak out of the century...again

so for the past 4 hours i've been having a

serious quarter life crisis. this december i'll be graduating

with a bachelor's degree in art history...and i have NO idea

what i'm going to do with it.

absolutely no idea.

at the current moment i'm thinking

african american art...but we'll see

if that changes by oh say wednesday?

because it probably will.

sigh

i just need for someone to tell

me what to do with my life..

things would be so so much easier.

who knew 4 years could fly by so fast?

sigh

geez louise