the life of a wallflower

i am currently wasted beyond belief which is the only reason i'm writing this.

i love someone who at times has treated me like crap. he cheated 3 months into the relationship. he is interested in other women and it breaks my heart. i love this man. a man i cannot be with. lord knows if he wants to be with me. i can't stand to hear that's he's on a date or some girl broke his stupid heart or whatever bullshit. he'll never know what it's like to love someone he can't have or be with. i love him with every fiber of my being. there i admitted it. i don't care if he sees this or not. i have to get it off my chest. love is the dumbest thing i've ever heard of. and its so hard to type when you're extra wasted b.c there's 100 more mistakes

love is dumb