Monday, May 25, 2009


dear sir,

please please please please....please don't tell me you miss me..


Wednesday, May 20, 2009

gosh darnit mumsie!!!

idk how my mom does it, but she always finds a way to make me feel better...thanks mommy.


..ugh...I've been feeling really weird lately...I wish I could say I didn't know why....blecch. I'm not entirely sure HOW I'm feeling..or exactly what emotion I'm feeling, but I have no idea what it is...i guess if I had to put into words what I'm feeling I would say a mashed potato, corn, cheese bowl from kfc..


(it's the first thing that popped into my head). idk.. it's just a jumble i a big blah. goddammit.

my heart feels like it's leaking....that can't be good...

Friday, May 1, 2009

"when they drew blood did they test for arthritis?"

so today I had an "event monitor" put on me today (I think it's like a heart monitor or something) because I get heart palpations. Not only that, I have occasional tendonitis in my left knee, runner's knee in my right. My metabolism is that of a lion...(not sure if that's a good reference or not basically I eat A LOT all the time but lose weight at the same time) so to sum everything up my family thinks I'm falling apart..mostly probably dying. I love my family to death, but for some reason everyone (including my 18 yr old sister) thinks they have their medical degree and want to self diagnose me. it's annoying. I guess it's because they love me and care and all that jazz blahblah..