Friday, April 30, 2010
idk. sometimes people really frustrate me and i let it bother me when i shouldn't.
maybe if i take deep breaths it'll make things better..
i knew i shouldn't have stayed in bed instead of eating. blerg.
this did brighten my day a little bit..i love will forte lol
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Sunday, April 25, 2010
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Monday, April 19, 2010
i spent what, 4-5 days in san diego once and i miss it like crazy. crazy! idk what it is...i want to go back quick fast and in a hurry.
and apparently new boy and i dating now...didn't get the memo but we are. which is nice.
i love my friends.
school is dumb...not as dumb as before but still pretty dumb.
and i love this song and can't get it off repeat...such a great song.
Saturday, April 17, 2010
Friday, April 16, 2010
idk why i am so into jeff goldblum, but he is awesome. love love love him on law & order ci
anyways, my mom always say it's the little things in life that make you happy. i totally agree with that...i was in the shower this morning and realized how much i love the feeling of the water running through my hair (one of many pluses for having natural hair) it made me so happy for some reason. the thought of kissing makes me happy too...i love kissing. it's such a sweet and intimate act.
for my humongous paper in my rococo class i'm writing about the connection between myth eroticism in rococo painting and 18th century sexuality..a lot of my paper is about francois boucher who is an amazing painter. definitely my 3rd favorite. on of his paintings i'm discussing is his "hercules and omphale" (below)
isn't great?! not a very good reproduction, but still amazing.
got $ in my pocket which means.....somebody can get her drink on tomorrow night! whoo-hoo!
but i promise i'll be on my best behavior this weekend.
bee-tee-dubs i love my friends. major hearting took place this week :)
back to my volumes 1 &2 of snl: best of will ferrell
i like it when a boy with breathtaking(ly?) blue eyes invites me to get ice cream with him.
i also like it when said boy with gorgeous blue eyes laughs at the things i say even when they're weird, i like it when he doesn't address my bad habit of word vomit. i like it when he notices that i'm constantly humming that tune from kill bill when whatsherface is walking through the hospital to kill whatsherface. i like it when boy calls me and i'm super sick and he says "aww poor sydney" i like finding out new things about the boy.
however, i DON'T like it when i think about the boy all the time..a lot more than a person should considering we've hung out twice outside of school. i don't like this "whatever this situation is" business.
i'm weird enough as it is..this whole thing is really bringing out deep down weirdness that i didn't even know existed.
time for chocolate chip cookies.
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
ugh i'm going to be the death of myself. ok maybe my word vomit is...i should've just stopped talking but no i had to keep going. *sigh* oh wells i guess. it was one of those moments where as soon as the words left my mouth (mouth= fingers typing in a text message) and i hit send i KNEW that was a bad idea. *sigh* i was doing so well too. i guess i can play crazy and pretend like i never said it. whatever, moving on.
idk what else to say...cool thing of the week coming soon...as soon as i get off my lazy bum.
*here's to having a better rest of the day..
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
i've finally grown out of my 12-13 year ugly duckling stage...unfortunately my awkwardness is still here..lord have mercy am i one awkward person. this whole "i'm into you but not sure how into me you are but i want to hang out with you anyway but i don't know how to approach you without sounding like a crazy lady because i don't know how you feel" thing is not what's up.
maybe it's all the drugs i'm on because of my cold...most likely not, but i can pretend right?
i think what i'm gonna do from now on is when i meet a guy give him a business card that says "just a quick heads up i'm super awkward so if i handle situations in a weird way that's why. i'm not a crazy lady, i just haven't developed the necessary social skills to be a functioning adult"
lord help me
i should probably stop talking about myself...i really do love myself i swear..i just have these moments
ps everytime i sneeze a layer of my throat comes off, a piece of brain becomes detached AND my eardrums explode...yes i am dying from a cold. rare i know
Monday, April 12, 2010
Sunday, April 11, 2010
(and no you can't pretend like people don't exist)
Saturday, April 10, 2010
got drunk...billigerent drunk
acted a fool
still had fun.
this time i'm for real about not drinking anymore..for real for real.
ok not really, but i promise i'll be on my bestest behavior from now on.
Friday, April 9, 2010
why must you be a racist douchebag? i really liked your latest album. heartbreak warfare was my favorite song. but no then you had to go say that shit in your playboy interview. broke my heart..especially considering how long i boycotted you after you won best new artist grammy instead of craig david! i eventually let go of my pride and became a fan. then you betrayed me. after the interview i stopped listening to your music out of protest, but then on the car ride home for spring break your heartbreak warfare song came on and i realized how much i missed your music. but now i'm torn: if i went back to listening to you (secretly of course) does that make me a bad person or should i still not listen to you? it's really hard. it's like when i felt bad for still liking chris brown's song forever after the whole rihanna thing. but anywho guess i'll figure it out. but someone definitely needs to knock you down 3 or 4 levels...you kinda fell in the deep end awhile back.
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
bursting at the seams right now!!
new boy may or may not have asked me to be his date to a friend's art show friday night...
ok he did!!!!!!!!
i'm kind of freaking out right now, because it came out of nowhere and he was so sweet about it and i really like him and think he's cute...so yea. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!