kiss kiss bang bang

so i've been single for quite some time and as a result i get these itchings (figural of course) to kiss someone. i love kissing...idk why i think this, but to me kissing is such an intimate act..and since i've been single i've been searching for that knee-buckling, pochantas wind swirling, passionate kind of kiss like i used to get with ex-lovah. even up to the end of our relationship i always felt some kind of oompf or spark when i kissed him. it was great. i'll never forget my first kiss (13 and braces sum that up), my first love (which was wasted on a later to be discovered jerkoff who held his camera in a sock because he lost his case) and my first in-love experience (ex-lovah). he was my second love, but first relationship and in-love-ness. to this day i still remember our first kiss. it was so sweet and romantic comedy-esque.

now since the end of our relationship, i've hooked up with different people, but when hooking up takes place kissing gets kicked to the curb...which as much as i complain about not kissing in awhile, i kind of like it that way, because i'm weird and kissing is so special to me for whatever reason.

and my harlet makeout session last weekend was cool....i genuinely liked the guy and he was a good kisser, but that's all it was..random kissing fest...there was no zsa zsa zsu (as carrie bradshaw calls it), but then again i was under the influence..now i'm back to square one. guess it's just the price i'll have to pay during my relationship quest (that sounds sooo bad...and desperate which is not a good look..but it's just cheesey enought i might keep it)

but i want to end on a good note and say this break has been AMAZING! spent good quality time with my family, which as much as they work my nerves sometimes, i'm always grateful for. had memorable times with brianna who i love like a sister. and got tons and TONS of rest which is good considering how tough this semester is going to be.

also i love michael buble.

mustang sally!

another oh-mm-jee post

last night was EPIC!!! lol

first off bree drove ALLL the way from warrensburg (about 45mins away from kc) after getting back from omaha to kc to go out with me and we didn't leave my house until after midnight,

after we spent forever looking for a f-ing parking spot i realized

i left my clutch at home. so back to the cooper household we went.

got to the club, couldn't find the guys we were supposed to meet up with. in that time someone's father (ok i really don't know if he was someone's father, he was just definitely

older than my age prefence lol) trying to spit game to me. it was so sad.

so we find the guys, bree's friend buys us drinks and we hit the dance area. a bunch of guys came up to us trying to dance with us...some not even saying anything, just grinding on us.

now i'm not that kind of girl that dances like that. i got that all out of my system during high school...i'm past over it. these dudes were for real getting mad when we told them we don't dance...like MAD! i was amazed! it was kind of funny to see them get so up set...like their manhood had been damaged...whatever!

2nd part of the night:

we leave the club when it leaves...this is about 3am. (keep in mind i'm technically supposed to have a curfew of 2am)

we go to bree's friend's cousin's house (i know i know lol). it's super awlward at first, because it's mostly his cousins there. in honor of the birthday boy we take a couple of shots...i had 1/2 shots, because i am a serious serious lightweight. as you can guess i got pretty drunk pretty fast. i ended up playing wii tennis with the birthday boy and then brianna....who i ended up beating while playing with my back to the screen (don't ask me how i managed that lol)

then i may or may not have made out with bree's friend....just to note i swear i'm usually not THAT girl. actually this is only the second time in my whole life i've ever done that.

but i must admit i definitely enjoyed it lol....mostly because i haven't been kissed in so long...and he was a really good kisser...well at least drunk sydney thought so.

so we didn't leave until after 5. stopped on the way home so i could pee...behind a tree in someone's yard. we didn't get inside my house until almost 6am, because i waited until we were a few blocks away to tell bree i was supposed to be home at 2 and she was scared to come inside lol.

overall last night was soo much fun...i couldn't of asked for a better way to end my break..even though i don't go back until sat. but still the night was amazingly fun.

(not really sure how i feel about this format for long stories)

i love bad made for tv movies

so i'm currently watching this wannabe day after tomorrow movie on the scifi channel (i refuse to say syfy) just add the threat of a terrorist in the mix. anywho it's soooo unbelievably bad. bad 90's cgi, bad acting...but it's one of those bad movies that you can't turn away from..i'm thoroughly enjoying myself though lol

anyways so after the 5th day of my break i've wanted to kill my sister just about everyday (figuratively of course) but she's leaving tomorrow to go back to school and i'm kind of sad..yes we' ve been at each others' throats all break we have had some fun times. i realized i was going to miss her in the car today on the way to dropping her off at work. my mom was being her usual crazy self and dan kept turning and looking at me because of the stuff she was saying. i couldn't help but laugh. we do have our usual blowups and arguments but i'm glad we have such a close relationship..it helps us keep our sanity while living with our parents.

me and my dan

update on the hair front: finally washed it today. i should be ok as long as i wear a hairband and makeup. but then again i guess if i was that secure with myself i wouldn't worry about whether or not i look like a boy with super short hair but whatever.

earlier today i wanted to go dancing really bad for some reason...still do a little. but alas i can't.

guess that's all....back to this movie lol.

houston we have a problem

oh-mm-jee. yesterday was crazy crazy. my computer got a really weird virus downloaded on it (to it?) i was freaking out (even shed a few tears) because i thought my computer was donzo. but mumsie to the rescue! she fixed it and now it's back to normal..thank goodness! then unfortunately she got edward scissorhands happy while trimming my hair and now i'm back to a twa from having a curly/afro with curls at least 4inches long...she said she was going to "trim" it for me because it was getting kind of crazy looking (which i agree it was getting nestlike) and now i'm left with hair maybe 2 inches long...guess it's my own fault for not paying attention and saying stop.

i'm listening to a podcast called europe and its origins episode 1 (yes i'm a nerd)...i got the idea from my friend chatoyya who listens to ancient history podcasts to help put her to sleep (it really works, one night i slept over and we listened to one on byzantine emporers...it was pretty interesting..and it did help me go to sleep lol).

i have one more week of break. it's been sooo nice. my parents and brother got 4 snow days this week, because the weather has been so crazy...guess it's making up for the weird bouts of warm weather we got in november and december.

wow this guy's voice is really soothing!! i would love to have him as a professor...this is going to sound really superficial, but a professor's voice plays a large role in my attention span and ability to stay awake in class..

i want my second tattoo sooo bad!! i'm itching for it. i think i need to get my first one touched up...but alas that takes money..money i don't have.

(my lotus flower tattoo on my right wrist...

this was taken right after it was done

so it's not as vibrant presently)

i want to end on a happy/good note. so here's a joke that's totally uncalled for

what's the difference between tiger woods and santa?







santa stops after 3 ho's lol i couldn't resist.

nye blah blah

well i guess a belated happy new year's is in order...happy new year's. this nye was soooo much fun! went out with one of the besties brianna and her other bf kalisha....definitely a night to remember thanks to a wasted bree lol. we got all gussied up and went to this crazy rachet filled club, but a good time was still had..bree and i always have fun together, we've been friends for about 7 years now (which always freaks me out for some reason whenever i think about it)

i'm doing much much MUCH better than i was when i posted last...i usually have my ups & downs, but i'm doing genuinely well. which is good...i hate moping and being in my feelings...no fun.

so i got alicia keys' new album the element of freedom with some of my itunes moolah....yea haven't been able to turn it off...i listen to while in the car, doing dishes, sitting in my room, taking a bath...i'm listening to it as i write this actually...it's SOOO good! in actuality i really shouldn't be listening to it (at least not as much as i am) because 99.9% of the songs are about love. which is really bad for my health because my mind starts to wander..her first song is called "love is blind"....yea i feel like she wrote that song for me but about a year too late lol. she has another song called distance & time...once again a little late alicia lol, but overall it's definitely her best cd in my opinion...

i currently have $13.29 left of my itunes $ and i'm trying to hold out for corinne bailey rae's new album which comes out later this month. i actually don't think it'll be too hard since there's really no album out there that i absolutely must have. got regina spektor's new album (finally) got my postal service back since i lost it when my other computer died on me, got alicia keys, almost got a fine frenzy's latest stuff, but it didn't blow me away like her other music. so that left me with waiting until CBR drops her music...super excited for that.

so one of the things i like most about being home during break besides sleeping in til noon, being pampered by mumsie, my only responsibility being washing the dishes, hanging out with , getting great internet reception and being able to do absolutely nothing is watching tv shows i can't watch while at school since my remote is dead. bridezillas and platinum weddings are among these. i love watching these shows, because i always ALWAYS ending up thinking in my head "well at my wedding i'm doing/having this and my favors are going to be these and so on and blah blah" then i end up wanting to sit down and plan the whole shebang out..which, as much as i really really want to do, i never do because self conciously feel like a crazy lady since i'm no where near that stage in my life...but it's fun to think about.

i guess it's picture time since i don't have anything else to say...oh these pictures were stolen from bree's facebook page btw..i left my camera cord at school...yea i'm smart i know.

bree and i...yea i didn't realize my boobs

were spilling over my dress that much until

after i got to the club...womp womp

having my usual sippy sip that gets

me up and dancing (libations are the

only way when at the club lol)

besties again! i got purple eyeshadow for the

night...i may or may not be obsessed

with it now...

kalisha boo! she had some BAD shoes

that night..4-5inch heels with feathers

and stone beads...they were hot

home sweet home

so i'm in my 5th day of my christmas break....i am in heaven! it's so nice not having any obligations, but doing the dishes and keeping the house straightened up. i slept in til 2 today and noon yesterday...it's so relaxing. been hanging out with the homie bree which has been a lot of fun. 5 days into a month long break and i have yet to want to kill my sister (that's doing pretty good considering past breaks). i love christmas time...especially being home in kc

well i guess that's all..just wanted to bask in the glow of break.