"things have been so crazy and hectic"

spent 5 days in stl visiting p.

had an AMAZING time.

cried after i spilled my guts, because i hate sharing/expressing my feelings.

smoked cigarettes.

laughed A LOT.

became addicted to breaking bad.

got gobs of sweet hugs.

had really good conversations.

felt loved.

cried on the train ride home.



overall i'd give the trip A++++++ so glad i went...

woke up early not tired

here are some pitchas from the past few weeks (definitely in random order):

chatoyya, angelica the graduate, and moi

sean and angelica...lol

angelica and ryan...how cuuute

chiffonte, me, angelica

(my neck looks so awkward)

chatoyya and me..think i'm gonna

just stop saying that because it's

obvious which one is me in these

pictures lol

brianna!

lol angelica was trying to take my phone

away from me, because i was

drunk texting

love my friend! lol

ginger in the yard lol

the little brother

sidewalk chalking

we didn't last very long, it was soo hot outside

almost put up a picture of p and i....theeen changed my mind...that's probably not a good idea.

looks like it's going to be another lazy day.

love this song

summer in the city

finally a real blog post!

i had started one earlier, but didn't feel like finishing it so i started a new one.

summer has officially hit the city of fountains (and it's companion in kansas) even though summer really doesn't start until june 20-whatever according to the stupid calendars, it really has come to kansas city. the nights are cool and the days are getting warmer. i love it. i love kansas city in the summer...i think a part of it is because i have great summer childhood memories. here's a picture of part of our backyard via me laying down on the couch under a living room window...it was so nice with the breeze blowing. i couldn't resist a nap

facebook reminded me that today is new boy's birthday. this morning i was doing some serious debating on whether or not i should wish him happy birthday. it's currently 9pm-ish and i have yet to do so. sure you could say i'm letting my pride get the best of me, BUT the only communication i have recieved from him since last tuesday, the last time we saw each other and once again he left without saying goodbye, was last saturday (graduation) when he sent me a half assed invitation to get drinks. this was his message: "ragtag?" that's not even a real question?! i politely declined since i was in kc, wished him congrats on graduating..no response. yes i would've most likely met up with him had i been in columbia (despite all the bitching and moaning i do) but i wasn't. fast forward to today...still no word from him. sooo i opted out of the birthday wishes. whatever.

speaking of p, 1. went out with bree and for the first time in who knows how long i got drunk without getting in my feelings. i was proud of myself. 2. it's funny the random things from the past you remember. for instance, idk what made me think of this, but earlier today i remembered the first time he had come down to visit me at school when we started dating. we were driving in his car back from a fuitless trip to sonic when we started going back and forth about if august is a summer month. i can't remember what his reasoning was, but it was so funny because we were both going on and on and he didn't believe that august is a part of summer...it was hilarious. i laughed to myself when i thought about it today..such a random insignificant memory. he wants to meet up when he's back in stl for a friend's wedding later in june. i don't think it's going to work, because i don't think my dad will let me take his car to columbia for the day. if he did i definitely wouldn't tell the truth. i'm torn, because i would want to spent more than a day with him since we haven't seen each other in over 2 years. but that's really not possible. and as a big believer in signs, i doubt it'll happen, because the other times we've tried to see each other since we broke up have always fallen through...serious sign. le sigh...idk. we'll see.

i really just need to get over this man...but it's not completely my fault. he starts shit by saying he misses me, and blah blah and how he misses his cuddle buddy. boys. i swear.

anyways. i must find a job. soon. this whole only volunteering plan is not working out. i'm so broke.

sidenote. not gonna lie, if i had my own car i'd seriously be planning a roadtrip to nyc. crazy i know. guess it's a good thing i don't have a car.

well guess that's all for now...i want to end on a good note..soo i'll share this little number (it's soo bad it's good!! i love a good laugh lol):

decisions decisions

so my original plan for this summer was to complete

an internship at one of the 2 major art museums back home

in kansas city....BUT these past few weeks i've been leaning

more towards doing gallery work, including exhibition installation,

working with artists and all that jazz.

yesterday i was researching the internships and there aren't

any available in that area and they're unpaid so i'd basically

be volunteering in a field i'm not that crazy about

anymore and an area i don't see myself working in

until way into the future. then i looked up galleries and found

4 potential volunteering opportunities! after some family/friend

consulting of course and thinking i've decided to go with

the galleries. I'm really really excited.

in other news, my left eyebrow is filling back in nicely

(i made the mistake of trying to do my eyebrows myself this past weekend...lesson learned)

my only class today isn't until 4, i had every intention

of studying, but i'm soo tired...but i'm torn

because the to-go dining place i usually

eat at on campus serves fresh pizza from

12:15-2:15...if i go back to sleep than i won't get pizza,

but at the same time i'm really really tired.

i'm trying to resist making a thing of zebra cakes the first

thing i eat..if this is my only dilemma than i guess i'm doing pretty

well...didn't do the readings for class (as usual)

*sigh*

i guess i'll get up then take a nap after i eat.

the Art League is having its opening reception tonight

for the new "Tall Stories" it's definitely my favorite

of all the exhibits that i've seen since i started volunteering there.

i've never been to the opening reception so i felt so special when Diana the executive director asked me if i would come...i feel like a grownup lol.

ok plan for the day:

eat

library

class

opening reception

fasfa

hopefully not getting a nap in will help me sleep tonight