"like a discotheque?"

sooo I think I'll start with the obvious..RIP MICHAEL JACKSON!!!!!! the shock has subsided...but still surprised. i was in the car with my bestie and we gotten text messages about it within 30 seconds of each other...we yelled for a few minutes. Can't believe it...no I'll admit he was a bit strange, but he made some damn good music, his dancing was CRA-AAAZZY and was an amazing singer. so I thought I'd share my 2 favorite MJ songs (they're in no particular order, I just couldn't pick an all time favorite..enjoy!








i forgot about this one until it popped up on the "related videos" thing on yoube..another fave!


I was so sad today because I finished my package of Twizzlers' Cherry Pull-n-Peel..so good...speaking of candy today during my break in my art history class I went to buy some peanut m&ms from the vending machine..i had a total of 85cents in my wallet and candy is a $1..whhhy!!! that is too much for vending machine candy. I remember in high school when they raised the price of vending machine candy from 60 cents to 75! 15cents makes a big difference when your in high school and you have no job...oh well..

lately i've been finding myself making random refrences to 30 Rock and The Office (2 of my favorite shows) i always laugh at myself then i think how sad it is..it's been on a an almost daily thing now...I don't know where Tina Fey drew the Liz Lemon character from, but she is genius! Sometimes i feel I have liz lemon tendencies...but liz lemon is cool so it's ok.
found out today that it's probably a good idea to change cloth band-aids after a day..or they start to smell like feet.. learned that the hard way.

I am currently addicted to this website, it's hilarious!!! (ok most of the time...i'd say the texts could be broken down like this: 60% hilarious, 50% gross, and 10% random or stupid ) jeez it's hard to type with a band-aid on the top part of your finger...mb I shouldn't have covered my knuckle..oh well.

A long long time ago...

'Ello! ...it always feels weird saying "hello" to a non-someone...anyways where should I start? how about the most heart-wrenching? ok!

For the past week my very bestest bestie in the whole wide world is visiting her le-boyfriend in Cali. i was really worried they weren't going to see each other til august....we can't be having that...but it all worked out!!! they are sooooooo cute together!! yay for love!!

right now I'm watching ghostbusters 2..loves it! not as much as ghostbusters 1, but it'll do. can I just say that the whole concept of grad school is dumb and overrated?! it is! and I really really don't want to go...I hate to say it but the main reason I'm going is so I could live in another city...and to eventually make good $$. the only problem I'm running into is my rediculously horrible of a gpa...i decided to stay an extra year to keep working on it..it sucks. being an average student in high school was ok...but that definitely doesn't cut it once you get to college. UGH! and this whole OPERATION FIND SYDNEY A COMPANION is NOT working out whatsoever...although I guess it doesn't help that no is here in columbia for the summer and I really don't put myself out there for the guys I really want to date..blurg. It's just that whenever I've been in any kind of relationship with a guy he's always approached me...I've never had to really do the chasing. I guess I should be grateful for that, but it doesn't help my situation...ugh again.

I have no idea what i want to do with my life...I know I want to be a curator...I want to end up in either d.c. chicago or nyc....idk

tomorrow I have to go see a cardiologist because apparently i have a rapid heartbeat. I'm hoping i don't have heart disease...then i'll have to hear all the crap about excercising and eating right again....not really up for hearing that again.

1 1/2 months until my 21st birthday? I'm suuuuper excited to get piss ass wasted drunk legally! can't wait! not sure if i want a party or just go bar hopping...not really big on the bar scene here, but I guess I have some time to think it about. i know it sounds really sad, but I really want a bf by the time my bday rolls around...or at least a guy who I'm dating exclusively....not really sure WHY but it would be nice to have one.....is it weird to fb friend someone who i've never spoken to, but who's seen me on an almost daily basis? i'll admit that I request ppl who've i've never said two words to sometimes, but this guy i definitely have a crush on this guy...he's the epitome of my type.

i have to admit the plain white t's always come up with some catchy songs/videos.this one made me tear up..it's great:




(i forgot they sang that "hate is a strong a word" song ...loves it!)

this song has some pretty good memories associated with it...it's still hard to listen to without thinking about those memories...but it's all good...still an awesome to listen to..especially when it's played on the guitar




I guess that's all for now...adios!

................

dear sir,

please please please please....please don't tell me you miss me..

sydney

gosh darnit mumsie!!!

idk how my mom does it, but she always finds a way to make me feel better...thanks mommy.

ugh

..ugh...I've been feeling really weird lately...I wish I could say I didn't know why....blecch. I'm not entirely sure HOW I'm feeling..or exactly what emotion I'm feeling, but I have no idea what it is...i guess if I had to put into words what I'm feeling I would say a mashed potato, corn, cheese bowl from kfc..

(it's the first thing that popped into my head). idk.. it's just a jumble i guess...like a big blah. goddammit.

my heart feels like it's leaking....that can't be good...

"when they drew blood did they test for arthritis?"

so today I had an "event monitor" put on me today (I think it's like a heart monitor or something) because I get heart palpations. Not only that, I have occasional tendonitis in my left knee, runner's knee in my right. My metabolism is that of a lion...(not sure if that's a good reference or not basically I eat A LOT all the time but lose weight at the same time) so to sum everything up my family thinks I'm falling apart..mostly probably dying. I love my family to death, but for some reason everyone (including my 18 yr old sister) thinks they have their medical degree and want to self diagnose me. it's annoying. I guess it's because they love me and care and all that jazz blahblah..

ZZZZzzzz......or not

sooo it's currently after 3am...I have to be up for class in about 4 1/2 hours for class...I shouldn't be surprised. It's my new "sleep schedule". so mon-fri I get about 4-5 hours of sleep every night, fall asleep in class, take a nap about 5 or 7 ish. then wake up about 11-12. and not go to sleep til 3 or 4. THEN on the weekend (sat and sun) I sleep til 1-2 in the afternoon. it sucks major blue whale sized balls. but there's only about 2 weeks of actual class left anyways.

watching The Office right now.....definitely one of my top 5 ALL TIME FAVORITO tv shows. oh so Larry Wilmore is a producer on the show..THEN I found out he's one of the anchors on the Daily Show (Senior Black corresponant or something like that) once I started watching the show on a regular basis again. well my point is i didn't realize how much of a funny guy he is. I want to adopt him as my uncle. there are a lot of ppl I want to adopt actually ..Angela Davis as another aunt, Susan Boyle as my singing nanny...I had more but I can't remember who they are

pretty sure I could live off shrimp for the rest of my life

well back to le Office

p.s. can I just say that Dhani Jones is THE best looking man I've ever seen in my life....and he writes poetry!!!!



p.p.s. I love that I figured out how to make words turn into websites