dirty bomb fuzzy glove

so a few days ago i found out that my school has 11,096 undergraduate male students...and yet a sister is still single. i have been single since may of 2008...i think...let me think about it..yea since last may. which doesn't seem like a long time, just over a year. but in reality it seems like forever ....why me lord? i really am starting to believe i was an evil doer in my past life. so unfair. i have freckles for petesake!! and an awesome gold nose ring..I'm a catch! I still know all the words to every backstreet boys song...i could do a one girl show of phantom of the opera, moulin rouge and pride & prejudice! i'm not THAT messy...i may acquire a few crumbs from eating in bed, but nothing too extreme. i have a cute, short curly fro-thing. w.e at least i have my health.

things i want right now
1. a slice...or 2 or 3 of my great-gma ferne's homemade apple pie
2. a red or navy peacoat with toggle closures
3. a car
4. shrimp
5. strawberry pop
6. a cuddle buddy
7. flat tummy...abs wouldn't hurt
8. diamond stud earrings
9. . a gold ring with a pearl
10. a better gpa
11. a working tv
12. contacts

when i was younger i always envied geni from i dream of geni and samantha from bewtiched, because they always got what they wanted thanks to their magical powers. i used to wish that i could wiggle my nose and move my head to make my room clean. oh to be young again

ex lovah has officially joined the grown up world. *insert major dramatic unnecessary sigh*
as dramatic as i am i'm happy for him.

i would just prefer for the universe to not be so against me right now......once again i have my health

2 bad habits i've acquired lately: sleeping in my clothes..which i guess isn't really a bad habit, i just shouldn't do it..ok i guess i can..idk. 2nd taking benedryl to help me fall asleep. i know it's probably really really bad to do, it makes my sleeping life easier.

ok no more mopey sad emo ramblings, happy time for the rest of this post!

GOOD NEWS TIME!

• my favorite show The Office starts back up again sept 17th. must find a way to get season 5...i'm technically not supposed to be student charging at the bookstore anymore since i ran out of $ to pay for school. so we shall see.
• 30 rock starts in october....so far away but excitement is still being expressed on my part
  went to academic retention services yesterday and had major help in planning my future...which took a lot of stress off my shoulders...whoo whoo!
• got my beef n broccoli w/white rice fix today...who knew mall chinese food could taste so good?! Yummers !
  

still working on tattoo #2. i want another one soooo bad!! it's addicting. mmm christian bale = yummy. (im watching the dark knight) i've heard people (mostly media) say bad things about maggie gyllenhaal's looks...not cool. 1. she's super cute 2. she's an awesome actress. ok i think she's really cute and a good actress. speaking of my opinoin, why on earth is miley cyrus of all people a part of vh1's divas live show this year after 5 f-ing years of the show not happening?!?!?!?! i'm super pissed!!! what about REAL performers?! beyonce? shakira? jennifer hudson? taylor swift? women who can actually sing!?! ugh!!! damn you vh1!!! whatever. miley can blow me..can't stand her.
ok time to cool off...

well i guess that's all for now...in a much better mood now.

oopsies

looking back on my last post i realized i forgot to put up a picture of my sister. (good thing she doesn't read this on a regular basis, she wouldn't be too happy lol) so here is my favorite antagonist..lover her to death no matter how pissed i get at her. we may not get along 24/7, but we do have some classic childhood memories..i'm glad we're really close. i dont know what i'd do without her. love you dan!!

my favorite little brother and sister

(pardon le eyebrows)

oooh what great taste in clothes you have!

(yea i'm reppin the Human Rights Campaign!!)

lake michigan! one of my favorite places

so pretty!

xmas eve, my freshman year of college...definitely gained the freshmen 15 in my face

(2nd attempt at bangs..didn't turn out so well, but not as bad as the first)

sometimes the universe isn't on your side

holy toledo today was a rough day...idk what's been going on, but lately I've been going through some serious mood swings. not very fun. second night this week I cried forever and ever. (one of my pillowcases is still stained from sunday...too lazy to wash it before laundry day..whenever that'll be)I just don't understand why people have to grow up? it's really not fair. i'm sure I sound super selfish, but i don't care. it makes me sad. when i was in high school i believed that crying, even for no reason, was a stress reliever and a way get my emotion off my shoulders and blah blah....i really dont feel like that anymore...now if i'm sad enough i'll cry, when my my eyes have dried up because i'm out of tears i'm still sad...crying solves absolutely nothing. still don't have what i want . ugh. i should probably stop complaining.

so a&e has been playing criminal minds like hotcakes (so that really doesn't make any sense, i just wanted an excuse to use hotcakes) and i must say the guy who plays spencer reed (matthew gray gruber) is sooo cute!! he plays a genius on the show and he does a really good job, there have been a few dramatic scens with his character...he gets props from me. and shemar moore?! don't get me started on that man...pure fine chocolately muscle. the only thing i hate about the marathons on a&e is that they start the episodes over again..ohwells.

i need a drink and a smoke. apparently the government is going to make cloves illegal here soon...if they weren't so expensive and i smoked them on a regular basis i would totally stock up....but seeing as how they arent' and i dont ...probs wont. (aww that was cute).well since im done drowning in my own sorrow, think i'm done......here are some pictures:

bree the best bestie

angelica the other best bestie..ever!!!

pop pop and my gingerbread

my brandon boo

mumsie

one of many birthday donuts

the best donuts in the history of the doughnut universe

one of the few swimsuit pictures of that exist in the world

the birthday girl!!

whew lordy

wow has it been awhile.....let's see recap recap...successfully celebrated my 21st birthday (aka got completely drunk every weekend).

spent some long awaited, much needed quality time with my homie slice fo life (yea I said it) Bree. Also spent some time with my favorite guy Brandon boo..(can't believe he's 9!! he's soo tall, he comes up to my boobs! which sometimes makes hugging kind of awkward.

Now I'm at school...survived the first week..barely. I like all my classes except my month long Mass Extinctions class...BLecccH!! so confusing. I really want to adopt my African American Women in History professor as my aunt...she's amazing!

So yesterday I discovered Tai-Pei frozen chinese dinners....i must say they save lives...pretty good for frozen food. however I made the mistake of getting garlic shrimp w/veggies ...i've been blasting off for hours..should've known better..garlic and I have never gotten along. i guess it's a good thing my friend didn't come over..how embarrassing..but still sad he never called....boo.

I did absolutely nothing productive tonight...so sad. been in one of my moods lately...got way too drunk saturday night and made a HUUUUGE mistake that i would pay big $$ to take back...ugh...I'm such an idiot..don't know what happened. as a result I probably won't be drinking for awhile...actually I have no $ ....$ for alcohol is the main reason i'm going to apply for jobs...so sad.It's weird how some people from my past decided to reappear at the same time...i feel like it was planned or something.

damn you garlic!!! jeez...

I also need $ to get these groucho marx eyebrows waxed with...oy vey

watching Tool Acadamy right now (so bad I know) and there's a guy on it who i swear i've seen before...interesting...hmm..

i love coco puffs..so yummers...perfect meal for anytime.

all for now...

yay for birthdays!

today's my 21st birthday!!

that's all for now....i'll post more after the celebrations

looking for love in all the wrong places

thanks to my new "sleep schedule" I am able to watch Saved by the Bell in the morning from 6-8am. watching it makes me realize no wonder dustin Diamond is so fucked up as an adult. I would be too if my only successful tv career was based on a character that was constantly made fun. whatevs I guess.

Seriously considering sucking it up and taking German next spring semester. watched the movie "Goodbye Lenin" (sooooo good!!!) inmy geography class this past week....made me think that ,aybe taking German won't be as bad as I think. mainly because of how closely english sounds to german. Hopefully me having french and german experience going into grad school will up my chances of actually getting in since my gpa sucks so bad. idk.

realized today that I probably shouldn't have bailed on the school's bookstore job fair..there weren't any cashier jobs open and the only job I would've considered taking is a clothing associate job or whatever they call it. basically i'd be working in the clothing section and directing ppl through there and blah blah. idk and i was not having a good day that day so i was not in the mood....although i bailed the first day too, but that's not the point. except i did pick up 2 applications from stores downtown. hopefully i'll get one of them.

i must say columbia businesses have THEY worst commercials i have ever seen....99% of them are so painful to watch....so sad.

i've definitely become like claudia from the babysitters club with my candy drawer.
Watching this episode of Laws&Order:SVU about a transgendered girl. very interesting...the girl is sooo cute!! except it was kind of awkward because when Benson and Stabler went to talk to her for the first time her mom opened her door and she was putting on her bra. Since she was still transitioning she had not developed breasts yet so she still had a boy's chest. idk I just thought it was weird that they showed that since the detectives already knew she was transitioning. overall pretty good episode, idk if they've ever covered problems transgendered people go through.

21st bday in a few weeks!!! soo excited to drink all day! definitely buying myself a bottle of champagne to celebrate.
supposed to be going to dc to visit le former bf-current amigo in late august.....planning has been an adventure on its own. super excited so i'm trying to not tell too many ppl just in case i end up not going, also trying my hardest to keep the trip from my mother...which is really hard to do, because i already tell her everything and then usually whatever i don't tell her she somehow finds out. how i have no idea. i've been on le amigo's coattails making sure i can really use his free plane tickets and making sure he books my flights in enough time.....so far it hasn't been working lol. but it's ok for now guess....idk since we've been friends for awhile then dated i still know how he is and how he operates, so im not freaking out. it's funny how much more you learn about someone when you date them...


BREAKING NEWS!!!!! the guy who played Dennis Duffy on 30 Rock (and Horatio Caine's younger brother on CSI:Miami....probably watch too much tv....recognized the woman who plays Holly on the office in law&order:svu AND ci episodes; and recognized ed helm's (andy bernard) voice on a online travel website commercial...jeez my life is sad) was on Law&Order: SVU!!!!! (sort of freaking out right now....i find him somewhat attractive) ok done being sadly super excited all by my lonesome in my room.

new favorite word: tittilated (must find a way to work that into everyday conversation)

love the way my painted toesies look....nothing like a 5am pedicure.
i feel weird following celebrities on twitter....but still cool.
ok music time!!!! found this on my john legend pandora station:
two of my favorite ppl!!!

YUH-HUH-MURRRS

new fave thing: ham/canadian bacon + green peppers pizza. had shakespeare's today TRES TRES DELICIOSO!!! super fresh green peppers..so tastey. can't wait for le refund check to get herre so I can finally get rid of the raggedy caveman sized tv I have now. flat screen here i come!!! and of course after spending half the summer yearning for my dvd player as soon as I get the cords I don't want to watch any of my movies. I just want my Golden Girls!!!!


found out what SMH stands for....3 years after everyone else. also found out what jive turkey means..not quite what I thought. oh to wells. the past 2 weeks or so i've really been wanting to pierce something...not sure what though...i don't even want to for aesthetic purposes, i just want to do just for the hell of it.

still not looking forward to grad school..bleecch. idk where i want to go for sure. damn gpa.
i want to go to the lake sooo bad. i really need to put operation make friends with someone who has a lakehouse into affect before the summer is over. i misses the lake.

sitting here watching "friends" ...definitely not by choice..don't really feel like rapelling(sp?) down from my mountain top loft bed to change the channel....especially when I dont have that many to choose from. i really should stop complaining.....we had our Africa lecture today in geography class today....SOOO SAD!! i just want to reverse all the colonialism that took place....having very bitter feelings towards europe today..ugh. it's so sad.

this song always makes me feel better..so inspirational....and it doesn't hurt that my boo sings it