i yam what i yam

i'm the kind of girl who...

sleeps in her clothes way more often then she should for someone who is 21 yrs old

bloghops/facebooks/twitters/etc instead of working on a final draft of a paper due at 9:30am

doesn't find out that dry cleaning is literally dry cleaning clothes until 2010

drinks champagne from her waterbottle during class

can't get love off her brain and is constantly daydreaming

can forgive, but can't forget

who drunk texts

still believes in animal heaven

knows that she deserves the world and nothing less than the best.

loves herself, flaws and all.

true happiness

I may have mentioned my happiness before….but I’m going to talk about it again…

I am genuinely, truly happy. Regardless of school stress, people annoying me, etc. at the end of the day I really am happy. And it feels so good to be able to say that. I’ve been through the depression game before and it was the worst. It amazes me how much one single person could have on my emotions and how I deal with things; and how once that person isn’t in my life anymore things change, because I definitely have been there…more than once with the same person. But I’m good…really good. I don’t think I’ve ever been this happy for such a long period of time before. I think my high self esteem has a lot to do with that too…lord knows I’ve had issues with myself in the past, but over the past months I’ve really come to love who I am as a person as well as accept my body as is. Granted there are times were I diss my ever expanding thighs and muffin top and talk about myself to myself, but overall I love my body. I love my boobs, my hourglass figure, my freckles, everything. I’ll admit that it’s nice to hear that from guys, but to be able to say that to myself and believe it means so much more.

So yea. Had to get that out.

Anyways in honor of stupid valentine’s day coming up I decided to buy myself some flowers

Yes I took 3 different pictures…I just wanted to show the different views…I’m embarrassed to say that when I picked them out I actually asked for “more purple”…yep just like that lol. I think i love purple too much.

Going to see Brianna again this weekend super super excited! We had fun last weekend, but I guess we didn’t get all the partying out of our system lol it’ll be fun.

Back to fudge brownie eating and horrible reality tv watching

YA/JUVENILE FICTION

Hi, my name is Sydney I am 21 years old and 3 out 4 of my all time favorite books are for young adults. I never really thought about it until today when I got lost in the campus library looking for Walk Two Moons in the regular grown up section, when it was really located in the Juvenile section…and yes I had to ask for help. Not really one of my proudest moments. I swear I’m going to start reading grown up books…I just never have the time. Especially while in school. I am ABLE to read for fun, it’s just that I know myself and I’ll put reading for school second and it’s already hard enough not falling behind.

But I digress

I checked out Walk Two Moons, because I’m taking the shuttle home on Thursday for my dad’s surprise 50^th birthday party (which I’m really excited for, because 1. My dad will be half a century old!!! 2. I’ve never been a part of a surprise party). And I wanted something to read other than my school shizz which I know I should be reading, but whatevs.

This is my favorite book of all time…in the history of books…ever lol.

Thank you thenewberryproject.blogspot.com

So proud of myself, I studied for about 2 hours at the library all by myself this aftertoon…even though the main reasons I went to study were 1. My dorm was having a security drill thing which I hate so I bounced and 2. It’s freezing cold outside and I knew I wouldn’t want to walk across campus trekking through arctic winds….ok it’s not THAT bad, but it has been pretty cold here in good ol’ Columbia, Missouri (it’s also been snowing pretty heavily) when I left for my 9:30am class it was about 18 degrees but it felt like -7 according to weatherchannel.com (being here I’ve learned to dress according to the “feels like” temperature and not the actual temperature.

Walking across campus with slush everywhere is not fun. I have officially learned my lesson that rainboots aren’t necessarily meant for the snow too. As a result when I’m walking I mentally tell myself not to fall, because if I don’t I get cocky then slip and slide all over the place…which is really embarrassing when 50,000 people are walking around you. Guess I shouldn’t be complaining about the snow too much considering the east coast specifically d.c. is getting buried under snow. Yeesh.

These pictures are from outside my dorm window (it’s really dark, because I face a parking garage and I didn’t want anyone to see me so I took incognito)

My only class tomorrow is cancelled, I’m soo happy. Studying and laundry are at the top of the list. Might have a day of music….the noisettes kept me awake while I was studying today (thank goodness for them)

Song of the week:

(can't get it out of my head, i love it)

same ol same ol

Have I mentioned lately how dumb school is??

Well it is….i was cursing school before class even started.

And I’m pretty sure my teacher thinks I’m an idiot…ok he didn’t tell me to my face, but I’m sure that’s how he feels from the comments he wrote on my paper…even though this is the face I gave him when he handed it to me:

I wasn’t too happy.

And these 2 pictures depict perfectly how I feel right now…

and it’s not even 1:30 in the afternoon. I’m so over school…especially undergrad. And I’m really not feeling the whole grad school thing at the moment. Idk what I want to do with my degree anymore. I’m this close to just going ahead and graduating in May instead of December. My major gpa is pretty ok so if I decide to go ahead and do grad school later on down the road I’ll be good as long as I have a foreign language and blah blah.

Whatever. Guess it’s a good thing I’m going home for a few days. I know Brandon boo and Gingerbread will be able to cheer me up.

et tu, rum & coke?

i really

really

really

need to stop drinking...

or at least re-adjust my limit.

this past friday night...omg.

thank god friends right?

i really want to tell people what happened

(ok what was told to me by those who

weren't wasted) but some of my

activities are SO embarrassing and probably

qualify as a basis for an intervention......

so i'm just going to keepmy mouth shut.

poor liver.

antyways.

i'm currently working on wearing my semi-TWA

without any kind of headband or

hair-thing-a-ma-jig

(thanks to this gorgeous girl who i saw in the library last week rocking hers without a hair thing....i know super weird reason)

so yea...so far so good. angelica came over tonight

and said it looked good which made me feel

better, because she's had natural

hair for a few years now and always rocks her twa

without hair things in it and it always looks really nice.

that being said i'm also going to start styling it

more often.

so we shall see how that goes.

last week i decided i wanted a knuckle tattoo...

we see how far that goes lol.

*sidenote: was moulin rouge REALLY that bad of a movie??

after all this time i still love it (and know all the words)

i'm sitting here looking at these 2 articles i'm supposed to have read for my greek sculpture class tomorrow...they're on my nightstand just staring at me...

i know i know if i'm awake enough to blog and watch movies

then i should be awake enough to read for school.

.......

yep not going to happen...i'll just read them tomorrow during my first class.

i'm kind of ambivalent about having a snow day

people are talking about possibly having tomorrow..

i only have 2 classes which are back to back in morning anyway

sooo...yea. don't really care.

my freshmen year mizzou had its first school wide snow day since the 70s when my parents were here...

and apparently it was the only the 3rd one in the school's entire history of existence...because i'm lame i thought that was pretty cool..kind of like being a part of history..but once again i'm lame like that.

i was so proud of myself today i didn't doodle in my notebook during class!!

i know it sounds pretty small, but that's a pretty good deal for me

i am a chronic(?) doodler...it's really bad lol.

these are from last week:

yes i know i'm (i'm = my parents and the federal government) not

paying shitloads of money for me to sit in class and doodle.

but i can't help it, i have a wandering mind

*sidenote continued: i wouldn't really mind

another singing ewan mcgregor movie

guess i'll go to bed now....

*idk why blogger keeps messing up my line spacing...it's really annoying*

self love

i'll admit, i haven't always had the highest of high levels of self esteem over the course of my life (due to many different factors, but i won't get into that), but recently (within the past year or so) i've really started to love myself for who i am and all that jazz.

while i was in class this afternoon i started to think about some of the things that make me..so here's a short list:

• i'm messy and unorganized
• i eat in bed and don't mind the crumbs
• i cheer for the puppies during the puppy bowl
• i'm the only one in my family with freckles
• my love for my favorite color purple can go a little overboard
• i love to laugh
• i sometimes wait until the last minute to take out the trash
• ever since my dad and i waltzed to the flowers dance from the nutcracker at my cotillion, i now get teary-eyed everytime i hear it
• i can't walk over grates
• i've always ALWAYS wanted to be a ballerina

..ok i had more earlier today, but this is all i can think of...

anyways, there's a quote that goes something like "you can't love someone until you love yourself" i really like that...

guess that's all...

deep breaths

i have a really bad habit of mentally

going ape shit when things go wrong

then because i'm so pissed other things that wouldn't

ordinarily piss me off do...

BUT! then my friends come to my rescue without even realizing it

thank gooseness for friends

especially best friends