it's my party and i'll cry if i want to

i hate school

i want to be in new york with him

school is dumb

pretty sure i have light insomnia (if that's even a thing...not full insomnia, but i'm getting there)

my face looks like a connect the dots activity page, because of my zits, which i think are probably payback for the countless times i thanked god that i never got acne...this sucks

even though i gave in and got my eyebrows waxed for homecoming, i feel like it hasn't made a difference

even though bree and i had a really fun homecoming weekend, i wish she went to mizzou so we could hang out more...thank goodness we'll both be home next summer

for some reason my mom thinks i'm too serious

im sick and tired and sick and tired of hearing about and seeing relationships. everyone is in a relationship but me...and the one person i want to be with is a gazillion miles away...i need a relationship buffer zone...or brick wall or something

i miss him gobs..and it's not fair.

ok i guess im done bitching...for now

"reverend blue jeans"

i'm really only posting a second time today, because i have volunteering at 2:30 and if i lay down i'm not going to get back up sooo here we go!

today in my African American Women in History class began a documentary on Ida B. Wells...i knew she was a revolutionary and a radical, but she was a badass!! She walked into President McKinley's office and straight up told him that he was not being radical enough in pushing anti-lynching legislation!!! ANNND she protested the 1892 Columbian Exhibition in Chicago, because blacks weren't represented...she's amazing!! whew!

pretty proud of myself, because somehow i managed to eat 2 tacos and a thing of nachos without spilling ANYTHING on me!! that's pretty rare for me.

kind of felt bad because i had a cigarette before noon on my way to class...but at the same time it made me feel good...and it kept me from being bitchy to strangers...so everyone wins!

it's raining kittens and puppies outside (not quite cats and dogs, but it's getting there)

view from outside my dorm window....

i love this campus during fall

i love my boots!

on a campus of 20,000+ students i have yet to see someone

with the same boots, even after a year!

i haven't had candy in i think over a week.....i'm going crazy!! i have cravings out of this world! probably for the best i guess because of the whole cavity thing. whatevs.

if it's still raining after i'm done volunteering i have a feeling i'm going to be in the bed with away we go on...i wonder how many times i can watch that movie before i get tired of it...

"i had it allllllll"

this post is being written instead of writing a revised paper..that is due at 11am...that currently only has 3 paragraphs...and needs to be at least 2 pages...oh well

anyways so alicia keys has a new song out and of course it's AMAZING! and sadromantic (yea that's a word!) the only problem is the fact that she is supposedly dating music producer swizz beatz...who is currently in the middle of a divorce...but not completely divorced...and they've been dating a for months...yea sadness. why alicia why?! i thought we were homies! how can you be the almost practically other woman?! not cool....buuuut your song is still good..soooo yea. here it is: (for some reason i can't embed videos anymore....stupid computer...but i guess i should be grateful..blah blah blah)

http://videos.onsmash.com/v/HsBPFZhvB54cAraw

so random thought: rainn wilson is awesome!! not only does he do an amazing job as dwight on the office, but his tweets on twitter (is that redundant?) are always so insightful, hilarious and just plain cool AND his new nba commercials are pretty funny as well....i guess it's not that random of a thought since i just saw one of the commercials...

i have officially learned my lesson about falling asleep with the tv on the nickalodeon channel, because i woke to dora the explorer after having THE weirdest dream about her and Prop Hat8 bill in california...it was off the wall.

sooo excited for homecoming this weekend, bree and i are going to have sooo much fun!! "all the single ladies, all the single ladies"! lol ...speaking of which why am i just now watching those videos of the babies dancing to that song?! ...ok maybe just one video...it's soo cute and really funny!


well i guess i should get back to this paper....ugghhh i hate school!! (at least right now)

...and all that jazz

so things have been going pretty well lately...well except for the whole school thing...monday and wednesday i took off from class..well classes..plural classes..i literally stayed in bed all day...ALL DAY...well ok maybe until 2 on monday, but on wednesday i didn't get up til 5..no lie! well i did get up to go to the bathroom....i know i know i'm such a bad student..but i was really tired!

so for some reason the "awaken" song by arcade fire makes me want to cry...i thought it was the combination of the song with the where the wild things are movie preview, because i definitely teared up when i watched the preview in the movie theater, and i want to cry whenever it comes on tv, but when i listened to the song on youtube i wanted to cry again..so i'm guessing it's the song..idk.

i must say i am really loving my friends lately....espeically my two best friends angelica and brianna. i love that i can always count on them to be there for me when i need them...gotta say i'm one lucky gal.

angelica!

brianna!

since i'm back on my weird staying until 2-3am sleep schedule i've started watching "roseanne" again...i love the banter between roseanne and dan it's so endearing and sweet in their own way. it's great to watch..and makes me all warm and lovey on the inside...

tuesday was "love your body day" (i know i know we should love our bodies everyday..which i do...85% of the time) it's a day set aside to publicly promote positive body image(ry ?) in BOTH men and women. this year's theme here at mizzou was "tweeting positive body image"..or something like that ...here some pictures:

a screen printed poster, i was supposed to write something
under "because" but i liked the poster as is

my t-shirt, the personal statement is supposed

to be like a twitter response to negativity

"i love all of my curves" i know not much of a

"take that negativity" statement, but i wanted

to say it anyways

the back of the shirt

so i sent this song to ex lovah...it almost made me cry...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OPXU33iquDE

tired happiness

i'm super tired right now, but really happy....i must say skype is the best invention ever. ever. ok mb not ever but it's definitely on my list along with tupperware, easymac, cranberry sierra mist, those tuna kit meal things, wireless computer mice, (i swear my original list is better and longer ...almost inserted that's what she said, but it seemed like a stretch) anyways yes i love skype because i get to see people.

that's all.

now i'm going back to sleep after writing once again another crappy paper...feels good to be taking a day off from school on a monday..i know i shouldn't but i've already made up my mind..i'll just pay for it later.

here's a special poem (i love it):


Her Lips Are Copper Wire

whisper of yellow globes
gleaming on lamp-posts that sway
like bootleg licker drinkers in the fog

and let your breath be moist against me
like bright beads on yellow globes

telephone the power-house
that the main wires are insulate

(her words play softly up and down
dewy corridors of billboards)

then with your tongue remove the tape
and press your lips to mine
till they are incandescent

Written by Jean Toomer (1894-1967)

oh me oh my

i must say one thing i love about relationships are the inside jokes...im glad i remember them too....i'm also glad other people remember them as well.

(in case you haven't noticed these are pictures representing

inside jokes between me and ex lovah.....)

currently watching eternal sunshine....another great movie i could watch on loop.

hmm

i guess all i can say is that i can't wait until march...i'm going to try and keep it a secret until all my plans are confirmed..it'll be hard, but i know i can do it. (excitement!!)

away we go

geez louise i love this movie

i swear i could watch it 20 times in a row

and not get tired of it..it's soo good!!

best movie poster ever

favorite line from the movie: "Yea my tilted uterus is a fucking secret!!"

john krasinski does THE BEST casey casum (sp?) impression

(i can't wait to watch it with ex lovah)